"The belief in otherness"

The power that religion has on people often amazes me to the extent that it scares me sometimes.

It is mystifying to know how some ppl can place such great faith in something that they can't SEE, FEEL and HEAR directly. It's BEWILDERING.

I ever tried searching for a religion to believe in. Through the past years, the only religion that I can gain easy access to is no doubt Christianity. I have been approached by quite a number of Christians in the streets and in school. My friends pulled me to church, in hope to convert me.

Unfortunately, I am still not internally convinced by the philosophies and theories proposed in any religion. How I wish there are more varities for me to choose from.(sound like i am going to market) I can't possibly believe in one for the sake of believing.

However, I still pray during my most hopeless moments. I must say I was very disappointed when the prayer din't work during a time when I most wanted it to come true. It kind of lose my faith partially. But I tried to think that things happen for a reason, most probably a good one. And perhaps "God loves her more than we do, that's why she has to leave."

There is such term called crisis religion. Religion coming into perspective only during a crisis. ha. quite true.


In my recent tutorial on religion, my tutor was surprised to know that there are quite a number of non-religious people in the class. He then asked what we do when we have problems. One student simply answers: " Solve it. " That was really a straightfwd answer and a typical one from an atheist.

Was joking with frens in school that I want to create a new religion. A religiion in which people believe in THEMSELVES, where the emphasis is on the self. Then they proposed that it might lead to the delusion of grandeur (feeling of being the greatest in the world). hahz.

Ultimately, God only helps those who help themselves first.