"The age that opens up greater challenges/demands in life "

How does it feel to reach the official age of adulthood?

-Mixed feelings-excited, fuzzy, dread, anticipate.
-Greater responsibility shall befall.
-Have to be more prudent before signing papers
-Expected to be street-wise.
-More accessible to previously banned resources and places.

Honestly, I don't feel like an adult. I don't know how to behave like one too. Even if I do, I am obliged to just so behave under certain desired circumstances. My inner soul still feel so vulnerable and lost in this big big world.

I will miss the privilege of being a youngster and the excuse of saying "I don't know what!" whenever adults scold me for the wrongful acts that I commit. Now that I am supposed to be more mature and wise, I shall be prepared to face reprimands for things that I don't know but am supposed to know.

There is always a price to pay for things that you have enjoyed.

When I was much younger, eating ice-creams is not allowed without my mother's permission. My sis and I have to secretly go buy and eat them literally behind my mother's back(behind my mother's shop that is). That was when the young heart of mine was so determined to grow up faster to buy ice-cream whenever I want.
Yet on the other hand, I enjoyed the pampering from adults and the ignorance I am allowed to portray. I don't know what is the definition of "problems" and "troubles". All I know is that they don't really exist in my dictionary.

Now that I have aged. I can finally buy ice-creams whenever I want. I can even buy one big tub or a box of 6s. But they no longer taste as good as those I've eaten secretly when I was young . Now I am allowed to decide for most things in my life without a must to ask my parents. I have finally gained access to the freedom that I've longed. Feel good, and unrestricted.
Yet anything wrong that I do now, I wld hear such phrases,"Why do you NOT know this?! " And from there if I have the cheek to reply "I don't know wat! ", I shall be bombarded with yet even harsher reprimands. I realized that I can no longer make irresponsible statements and actions as that may bring about consequences to others.

See, there is always a price to pay for things that you have enjoyed.

To end this with a lighter note, I am still looking forward to more impt decisions I am prepared to undertake in the near future in spite of the fear of doing wrong. I also look forward to attending my best friends' weddings (hopefully whose grooms are not whom i am in love with!). I look forward to working hard in my future career (provided I am able to find an ideal one lor). I look forward to be able to buy a condominium (not a must, but ideally. To better fulfill my anticipated all-rounded and healthy lifestyle).

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Last but not least, thanks for the lovely and useful presents that some of you have chosen for me and the time spent to meet me and the many bdae SMSes I have received from even some lost-contact friends. Appreciated. Really did get the feeling of being a bdae gal! hahz. It's certainly a good start engine for me before sch officially reopens. Thanks a whole lot !