Gossiping and rambling away....

(Wah so long post...add it on whenever I free one...thats y. Feel free to read if bored. ha. Some parts are more for myself to let off steam than for your reading pleasure. ;>)

Intro
My recent part time job as a waitress in a Jap restaurant. (Ask me for name yourself)
To count the exact number of working days is only 13, still counting...

Culture
The restaurant is very noisy, alot of shouting here and there. Japanese words flying all over the place. So noisy, so troublesome. Bo bian, its their culture. Have more or less gotten used to it though I still don't shout as loud and frequently as others larh. I always 'eat snake', tend to shout only when necessary. Got 100 over food dishes in the menu. Kinda overwhelming at first cos scared customers ask me questions abt the food that I dunno how to answer on the spot.

Business
Office lunch hour is hot. Fri nite is horribly busy. Queue outside waiting plus calls coming in to make reservation. I hate to be hurried to set table when there's a limit to the speed of my hands larh, so irritating. Just shut up lor, give me some peace larh. Btw if you are reading this, don't come here eat on Friday nite k, go elsewhere eat larz k! We are very busy alreadi. Will not give you our best service and attention one.

Salary
Ask me yourself. I already considered the pay as not bad for a waitressing job, as compared to normal $4 to $5 /hr in other restaurants. Different pay rate for weekday and weekend even. The staff will share the tips UNEVENLY. The longer period you have worked there, the more you will get. I got a tip of only $3, for the first time today. Dunno is a monthly basis or wat larh. Then if we hit sales target, I've heard we will each get extra hongbao money also. I have trust in this company cos it's a proper structured Japanese organization, from the way they conduct training and the staff hierarchy.

Colleagues
I don't like the supervisors here. There are 4 female and 1 male supervisors altogether. My past experience gives me the feedback that female superiors will not treat female employees as nice as male superiors would. I dislike Anne the most- her mean and sacarstic way of responding to my needs, her authoritative way of ordering me to do this and that and her unhelpful attitude twds me! My mum says maybe I have presented myself as those guai guai type, easily bullied pattern with my 'bookish' appearance, someone who will not whine or complain when being asked to do things so she dares to assert her authority on me as a supervisor. I hate it when she hurrys me to do things. Someone pls sing the song "shut up" to her. I hate it when she gives me the impatient look when I ask her questions regarding work. I hate it when she likes to question my every action. Cant she give me some freedom and the benefit of trial and error, bit*chy bit*ch lehzz. She is those kind who will leave me in the lurch when I encounter problems. BUT sometimes when she speaks nicely to me and say thank you to my help, I can afford to forget her mean-ness altogether. I becum willing to give myself a chance to change how I feel twds her. No..put it another way, I am allowing her chances to be nice to me b4 I give her a bad label permanently in my heart. It is afterall not a good feeling to dislike/hate someone. You are actually hurting yourself if you choose to hate someone.

If you are nice to me, I will be nice to you as well. If not, I will do nothing but merely treat you as invisible. This is what happened. Theres a full-timer, Kate. She is mean to me a few times so I decide to treat her as invisble at work, glance pass her everytime when walk past her, minimal interaction with her. But again, when she speaks nicely to me, I realize I can 'forgive' her altogether and decide to give her more chances to be nice to me b4 I decide to be nice to her.

But still, any questions or problems now, I will not choose to ask her or Anne. I not so stupid to get myself hit on pricky nails now.

I like Oliver, the assistant manager. He gives me comforting smiles and reassuring words. Nice. Such a good-mannered and responsible man. Definitely a good husband and father back in his home. Other colleagues I like will probably be Aurange, Kit, Shaoyu and Weizhang. They are the only ones who smile at me and offered to teach me stuff on my first few days of work out of their own initiative. Nice. Don't see I like blur blur in the restaurant... always quietly doing my work, I am so aware of those who are nice to me and who are not lorz. If I have a magic wand, I will grant those nice ppl to heaven straight away, and those 'bad' ppl to....well...the zoo.

Lesson
I have learnt many things needed for the work thru the hard way unfortunately, that is, through mistakes that I have made b4 and after being told off by supervisors after each mistake made. Probably also learnt to be more immuned to being told off for mistakes made liao, even when not entirely my fault and yet no room for defensive explanation. Still remember got one time I tried to explain why I make a particular mistake, my supervisor exlciamed 'Don't give me excuses!' and went off. But now I know her pattern larh, she is only fierce during busy hours. So no hard feelings twds her alreadi.

Debrief
Despite the seemingly long complaint of mine, I should think that this is a job that I can stay long thru my sch semester. The job itself is ok. Its just me not being able to reach the full comfort level with my colleagues that give discount to how I feel abt this job la so in the end is neutral feeling lorz. I will continue working when sch starts as they are very flexible with the schedules that we have.

Source of motivation
I am always calculating the money that I have accumulated so far from the job to motivate myself to hang on to it. Yeah...I need to earn back the money that I have spent in the holidays. So much 'losses' to recoup from frens' bdaes and the thai trip in this hol. For now, I will not allow myself to go shopping until I see my bank account money resume back to its 'golden line'. I literally walk past boutiques now without giving a second glance ok.

Reminder
Pls refrain from lending money from me these days as I'm feeling stingy and just so very afraid of not being able to get my money back from you. (note the dollar signs in my eyes these days) Ppl always say that when you lend money, you must lend with the mentality of not being able to get it back. Paiseh hor, I am for time being not attuned to that kind of mentality, for your info.

And for anyone who still owe me money whether recently or back in stone age, pls have pity on me and kindly return me out of your own initiative b4 I decide to hire loansharks to chase after you.

Last but not least, I am really not a calculative person. ( ;>)