Everything that happens in this world, there is no absolute good or bad. Sometimes good things turned out to be bad things eventually, while bad things become a gain. Whatever good things that happen to you, enjoy it, but don't have to hold too tight to it, treat it as a surprise in your life. Whatever bad things that happen to you, don't have to feel too sad or despair, in the end, it might not be a total bad thing after all. If one can understand this, he or she will find life much easier.
(copied from a net fren's profile details)
Thursday, March 24, 2005
Sunday, March 20, 2005
"My Fear Factors"
Things that I am pretty afraid to try but actually feel that one should try for the sake of experience as we only live once !
It's an ongoing conflict btw what I dun dare to do and what I think I should do.
-Scuba-diving and Mountain-climbing
(these two extreme vertical limits are definitely my extreme fears. I fear the possibility of never able to get to the water surface and falling off the cliff, really!)
-Bungy jump
( I def love thrill rides but to let loose on the rope that oscillate me up and down above the sea is what I doubt my heart can withstand ! have only tried the G-max in clarke quay. )
-Singing on stage
(I really wish I have a diva's voice as I would so love to perform on stage if I am good enough. I have promised myself to fulfill this wish on my wedding day, that is, to sing love duets with my future husband on stage!)
-Trying out any BG relationship
(fear of commitments and expectations that I (or the other party) cannot fulfil & the potential realization that the person is not the one [or that I am not the one] )
-Taking drugs eg Ecstacy.
(have always wondered what it's like to feel high on drugs, the possible hallucinations one can see and the behaviours one can produce thereafter. Cos I wan to see whether I can control how I want to feel and behave. If I ever take, I will try it only at home. Ok...I know curiosity kills the cat! )
-Shoplifting, smoking.....one night-stand??!!
(smoking, I will def try one day which my mum has suggested that I try when we go msia. shoplifting, just curious to see how easy it is. 1-nite-stand, unlikely larh!!)
Other than the above, I think I am a fearless person! yeah ritez....let's just say this space is not enough for me to write all of them if I were to.
It's an ongoing conflict btw what I dun dare to do and what I think I should do.
-Scuba-diving and Mountain-climbing
(these two extreme vertical limits are definitely my extreme fears. I fear the possibility of never able to get to the water surface and falling off the cliff, really!)
-Bungy jump
( I def love thrill rides but to let loose on the rope that oscillate me up and down above the sea is what I doubt my heart can withstand ! have only tried the G-max in clarke quay. )
-Singing on stage
(I really wish I have a diva's voice as I would so love to perform on stage if I am good enough. I have promised myself to fulfill this wish on my wedding day, that is, to sing love duets with my future husband on stage!)
-Trying out any BG relationship
(fear of commitments and expectations that I (or the other party) cannot fulfil & the potential realization that the person is not the one [or that I am not the one] )
-Taking drugs eg Ecstacy.
(have always wondered what it's like to feel high on drugs, the possible hallucinations one can see and the behaviours one can produce thereafter. Cos I wan to see whether I can control how I want to feel and behave. If I ever take, I will try it only at home. Ok...I know curiosity kills the cat! )
-Shoplifting, smoking.....one night-stand??!!
(smoking, I will def try one day which my mum has suggested that I try when we go msia. shoplifting, just curious to see how easy it is. 1-nite-stand, unlikely larh!!)
Other than the above, I think I am a fearless person! yeah ritez....let's just say this space is not enough for me to write all of them if I were to.
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
"I have binge-eating disorder. "
That was just a scare statement. (okie...as if it has scared u...)
Basically, what I want to confess here is that I really do have the urge, tendency and impulse to binge-eat whenever I am feeling stressed AND when I am alone with no one else around to distract me. Yes, only when I am alone. Orelse why do you ever not know this about me? Cos I won't do that infront of you.
There are mainly 2 kinds of eating disorder: anorexic nervosa and bulimia. (actually binge-eating is a 3rd kind but I shall exclude here) For one thing, you won't have to worry that I will ever get anorexic cos looking fwd to my next meal is always my pleasure and I really see the importance of food in giving energy to life. Looking back my past actions make me recall that I really have the potential to having bulimia if I have let loose of myself.
In my case, I don't vomit out the food that I have eaten. I use the other compensatory action which is exercise. The characteristic of bulimic ppl is that they binge AND subsequently use either vomitting, laxative or excessive exercise to compensate their binge. For me, i get v guilty over my binge and next moment you will see me getting in my running shoes and off I jog in the park. (not excessively though cos my stamina isnt good.)
Well that was only an occassional activity of mine more frequently so in the past. (and also to some ppl out there I believe) Ha...I bet you never know that about me. Of cos mine is a less serious case as I don't binge ALOT and don't exercise ALOT. That's y I can only claim to have the near tendency to having it.
Of cos given the fact that I am a TOTALLY rational person, I have found the means to CONTROL now. I realised that my binge-eating habit during my stressful periods is merely to seek for temporary comfort and immediate gratification. I especially like to binge on sweet stuff like chocolates, biscuits and ice-cream. (just ssoo love them! ) Eating them in the process give me the satisfaction that I want which help me to escape from my stress. To reinforce that kind of feeling is to keep on eating which result in binge eating. Then guilt comes in which makes me feel sad and even more stressed. It's a vicious cycle. Scary.
Now I no longer indulge in binge-eating (as far as I would want to believe) cos I can anticipate the negative feelings I will have thereafter which is not what I want. I am eating moderately now, eating out of hunger rather than greed. The urge is still there whenever I am feeling down but I now know how to control myself.
7-mark full on the scale rating is my healthy aim.
Basically, what I want to confess here is that I really do have the urge, tendency and impulse to binge-eat whenever I am feeling stressed AND when I am alone with no one else around to distract me. Yes, only when I am alone. Orelse why do you ever not know this about me? Cos I won't do that infront of you.
There are mainly 2 kinds of eating disorder: anorexic nervosa and bulimia. (actually binge-eating is a 3rd kind but I shall exclude here) For one thing, you won't have to worry that I will ever get anorexic cos looking fwd to my next meal is always my pleasure and I really see the importance of food in giving energy to life. Looking back my past actions make me recall that I really have the potential to having bulimia if I have let loose of myself.
In my case, I don't vomit out the food that I have eaten. I use the other compensatory action which is exercise. The characteristic of bulimic ppl is that they binge AND subsequently use either vomitting, laxative or excessive exercise to compensate their binge. For me, i get v guilty over my binge and next moment you will see me getting in my running shoes and off I jog in the park. (not excessively though cos my stamina isnt good.)
Well that was only an occassional activity of mine more frequently so in the past. (and also to some ppl out there I believe) Ha...I bet you never know that about me. Of cos mine is a less serious case as I don't binge ALOT and don't exercise ALOT. That's y I can only claim to have the near tendency to having it.
Of cos given the fact that I am a TOTALLY rational person, I have found the means to CONTROL now. I realised that my binge-eating habit during my stressful periods is merely to seek for temporary comfort and immediate gratification. I especially like to binge on sweet stuff like chocolates, biscuits and ice-cream. (just ssoo love them! ) Eating them in the process give me the satisfaction that I want which help me to escape from my stress. To reinforce that kind of feeling is to keep on eating which result in binge eating. Then guilt comes in which makes me feel sad and even more stressed. It's a vicious cycle. Scary.
Now I no longer indulge in binge-eating (as far as I would want to believe) cos I can anticipate the negative feelings I will have thereafter which is not what I want. I am eating moderately now, eating out of hunger rather than greed. The urge is still there whenever I am feeling down but I now know how to control myself.
7-mark full on the scale rating is my healthy aim.
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