When the year is ending and a new year coming, I just cant help but think of new changes that I would like to adopt and old habits that I would like to kick away for a fresh new year to start with.
Despite knowing that new year resolutions are practically useless, everyone of us should still spend some time reflecting back on our past and ponder on what changes we would like to make in the coming new year. Surely you don't want to remian stagnant in ur level of progress as each year goes by? It will be quite sad to know if you found urself being the same old you as you are back in JC times for example.
1. Work shouldnt be an excuse for me to indulge in overeating out of stress and less exercising out of tiredness (though they seem like very valid reasons to me most of the times!) The intake of food should be proportionate to the level of physical activity. The more you exercise, the more you can afford to eat. This is my theory. If I want to indulge sinfully on food and delicacies, then I better discipline myself to exercise more in order to cater to that form of luxury. I have not been keeping up with the exercise regime I hope to maintain outside my worklife. Its definitely not a good feeling for my mind and body at the end of the day. As such in the new year, I want to kick away the bad habit of snacking and eating too much when I am not exercising enough to compensate for that. I have the habit of snacking continuously when I am bored and feeling all down and guilty thereafter. No good!
2. I am always thinking about my work and clients during my free time like the follow-ups that I need to do etc. This has to stop. Time and work management is impt to me. I want to do every part of my work properly so that I do not need to allocate more time to do amendments thereafter. Beside reading casefiles and work-related stuff, I want to allocate time to cultivate a more regular reading habit cos I have been procrastinating and putting reading aside too many times. To say honestly, I am someone who have short attention span which I've realized over the years. Only having the need to go for exams can force me to read a certain thing. Very sad case rite. I don't have the patience to finish a novel and infact I've not read a proper storybook ever since the absence of literature subject in my curriculum (come to this, jenny, I realized I have not returned u the DA VINCI CODE ever since given up reading it long time ago). I wish I have loved reading more and infact, I should think that I am someone who will love reading but why am I not? Therefore, i want to adopt a more regular reading habit, be it newspaper or even magazines in the new year!!
3. I have always wanted to master my mother's cooking recipes as to be able to cook is definitely a great asset to one's own family in the future. It will be such great pity and desapir if I choose not to be inquisitive enough to impart some of my mum's cooking talent. I have been learning on and off which to me equates to insignificant input of knowledge that I should feel ashamed to confess. As such, I have bugged my mum to bug me into learning a new dish every mth during our free time. HA.
4.I want to be more proactive and eager about learning my own dialect. Hokkien! Sad to say I do not possess the environment to learn and speak Hokkien naturally although my parents are proficient in it. This language skill is crucial in my field of work bcos quite many of my clients are elderly and some only know dialect! I have been too laid back in picking up this language due to forgetfulness and procrastination. Being more proactive in things is what I hope to achieve in this new year to come.
Yes you may chide at me for sounding idealistic in what I hope to change as we all know that being said is easier than to be done but well, it doesnt hurt to have plans in one's head as a form of reminder to what one can possibly do. From psychology, it is said that publicly confess something can reaffirm one's commitment to it.
At least for now, the new year has not arrived yet and there is still time for me to sit back in my cache of old habits and wait for the auspicious strike of the new year to come and kick them away!
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Friday, December 15, 2006
Snippets
By observations around me
I realize it doesnt take much for some ppl to be happy.
No need a big or havoc occassion to be.
Just simple things to smile and laugh heartily.
Indeed, life should be like this.
Why do I fail to practise?
Sometimes I still feel like a kid.
Like I'm being forced to grow up
When I am not even ready.
To face the public and talk like an adult.
When all along I'm actually just pretending to be.
To me, its a beautiful love story.
If things can go smoothly till the end of it.
Tracing back the initial moments when I first notice him
To the later part when he starts to notice me.
All these snippets of memories
I darent recall so clearly.
Incase it's what I want to forget ultimately.
I realize it doesnt take much for some ppl to be happy.
No need a big or havoc occassion to be.
Just simple things to smile and laugh heartily.
Indeed, life should be like this.
Why do I fail to practise?
Sometimes I still feel like a kid.
Like I'm being forced to grow up
When I am not even ready.
To face the public and talk like an adult.
When all along I'm actually just pretending to be.
To me, its a beautiful love story.
If things can go smoothly till the end of it.
Tracing back the initial moments when I first notice him
To the later part when he starts to notice me.
All these snippets of memories
I darent recall so clearly.
Incase it's what I want to forget ultimately.
Sunday, December 03, 2006
Bread and butter issue
Sometimes I think I will go blind one day, given the amt of hours I spent staring at the computer during work, plus the number of extra hours I stayed back after work to finish my reports.
Despite the upclose personal part of my work that allows direct contact with ppl from the lower strata of the society, there is alot of nitty gritty and bulky admin work that I need to do thereafter in order to close a case. Then we need to do follow up to keep track of our old clients to ensure that they reach self-reliance at the end of it. So many things to do yet so limited time and resources I have.
Will be going for 3 days trekking trip to Berkelah on the 11th Dec. Hope wun rain man, scared slippery! Need me to get any souvenirs for you guys? Spring water, pebbles or a lump of soil?
Sometimes i really think I have an obsession with bread. I can't help wanting to eat bread every time when I feel hungry or feel like munching things. Whenever I can't think of anything to eat during meal time, the only thing that comes to my mind is bread and buns. It's no wonder if one day I ballooned just like a dough in the oven if I let myself loose on the consumption of bakery stuff.
Despite the upclose personal part of my work that allows direct contact with ppl from the lower strata of the society, there is alot of nitty gritty and bulky admin work that I need to do thereafter in order to close a case. Then we need to do follow up to keep track of our old clients to ensure that they reach self-reliance at the end of it. So many things to do yet so limited time and resources I have.
Will be going for 3 days trekking trip to Berkelah on the 11th Dec. Hope wun rain man, scared slippery! Need me to get any souvenirs for you guys? Spring water, pebbles or a lump of soil?
Sometimes i really think I have an obsession with bread. I can't help wanting to eat bread every time when I feel hungry or feel like munching things. Whenever I can't think of anything to eat during meal time, the only thing that comes to my mind is bread and buns. It's no wonder if one day I ballooned just like a dough in the oven if I let myself loose on the consumption of bakery stuff.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Accountability!!
I am so stressed, even more so after encountering difficult ppl today!!!
AAAHHHHHHHHHHH! Just let me scream!!!
The most untolerable aspect of this job is clients who dont want to help themselves but waiting for us to do things for them!!
Sometimes their attitude really explain why they keep getting themselves trapped in their poverty cycle, not that I want to say.
There is so much I want to do for some of the genuine cases, yet so little that I can offer, given the amt of cases that I am handling.
Today I almost go to the extent of taking out my own money to give to one client bcos she refused to leave!! Keep whining and crying and attempting to suicide.
I am drained out today, my mind was tight and heavy at the end of it.
I am even going back to office out of my own accord this sat to meet my clients and to clear some backlogs. Poor me.
AAAHHHHHHHHHHH! Just let me scream!!!
The most untolerable aspect of this job is clients who dont want to help themselves but waiting for us to do things for them!!
Sometimes their attitude really explain why they keep getting themselves trapped in their poverty cycle, not that I want to say.
There is so much I want to do for some of the genuine cases, yet so little that I can offer, given the amt of cases that I am handling.
Today I almost go to the extent of taking out my own money to give to one client bcos she refused to leave!! Keep whining and crying and attempting to suicide.
I am drained out today, my mind was tight and heavy at the end of it.
I am even going back to office out of my own accord this sat to meet my clients and to clear some backlogs. Poor me.
Saturday, November 11, 2006
Office romance not allowed
It's funny that he has been sending me sms everday since the break of camp even though we are working in the same office. At first I thought that he just wants to be nice and and friendly to me being a new staff in the office. Not to mention that he pops by every corner of the office to make small talks with every other ppl which include me. Nothing surprising. I thought he is just being friendly.
Camp mates ever ask me what I think of him during camp. I said very nice guy and full stop. This is purely the impression I get. Nothing more to say. Infact, he has many other good qualities in his personality which I cannot deny. But that doesnt mean I should like him just bcos he is good. There is no formula for such.
It is until he drop me a sms to say a piece of his mind which scares me abit to know. A short, simple and direct statement that appears to state it all. I was taken aback that I rather he not say it and I not know it. But I was able to see him and talk to him as usual the very next day mayb bcos we both were able to act as though nothing has happened and most imptly, I dun feel anything special twds him except as a potentially good fren in the future.
Camp mates ever ask me what I think of him during camp. I said very nice guy and full stop. This is purely the impression I get. Nothing more to say. Infact, he has many other good qualities in his personality which I cannot deny. But that doesnt mean I should like him just bcos he is good. There is no formula for such.
It is until he drop me a sms to say a piece of his mind which scares me abit to know. A short, simple and direct statement that appears to state it all. I was taken aback that I rather he not say it and I not know it. But I was able to see him and talk to him as usual the very next day mayb bcos we both were able to act as though nothing has happened and most imptly, I dun feel anything special twds him except as a potentially good fren in the future.
Saturday, November 04, 2006
Realize
I can undstd why time will pass faster once one starts working bcos every week we awaits for the weekend to come. With anticipation of the weekend plus the busyness of work, it is inevitable that the weekdays pass as fast as we wish it to be. Thus it is to no amazement that we can grow older faster than we realize.
Time and money to me feels like a pie chart now. I have to ration and divide proportionately among my old friends, new friends, colleagues, work, leisure and exercise. Less time for myself. It's indeed a big challenge to embrace the new and to maintain the old. Now that I am working and receiving a monthly income, I feel so glad that I can finally and officially make financial contribution to my family le! I always hope that my entry to work can help to lessen my dad's burden. It's funny to hear from my dad's comment that I am the new ATM machine at home now! haha.
When old staff teaches new staff something, its hard for for the former to imagine what the latter dunno bcos they have forgotten what its like to be new when they are already so familiar with it. This applies to teachers in school as well. A teacher is good if he is able to teach in an unassuming way such that he can explain what he can understand from the student's perspective.
When entering a new setting, it is important to smile wherever you go. Talk even when its NOT necessary. If thats not your nature, make an effort to do so. Set reminders if you need to. ;p
Time and money to me feels like a pie chart now. I have to ration and divide proportionately among my old friends, new friends, colleagues, work, leisure and exercise. Less time for myself. It's indeed a big challenge to embrace the new and to maintain the old. Now that I am working and receiving a monthly income, I feel so glad that I can finally and officially make financial contribution to my family le! I always hope that my entry to work can help to lessen my dad's burden. It's funny to hear from my dad's comment that I am the new ATM machine at home now! haha.
When old staff teaches new staff something, its hard for for the former to imagine what the latter dunno bcos they have forgotten what its like to be new when they are already so familiar with it. This applies to teachers in school as well. A teacher is good if he is able to teach in an unassuming way such that he can explain what he can understand from the student's perspective.
When entering a new setting, it is important to smile wherever you go. Talk even when its NOT necessary. If thats not your nature, make an effort to do so. Set reminders if you need to. ;p
Saturday, October 28, 2006
Subdued
As you have observed, I will try to update my blog once a week now since on weekdays, I will be too tired to do anything with the computer upon reaching home after work.
Will be going for staff retreat next mon and tues. Hope it will be an enjoyable getaway experience with other colleagues in the office. I guess life will be more eventful in the future with more upcoming ad-hoc duties and events that will be scheduled along the way.
Everywhere I go now, be it in camp or workplace, I am always the youngest and therefore feeling very inexperienced and small in the presence of others. I shall remember how I feel now and note the changes along the way as time goes. Cos I wonder when I can reach the stage when I no longer will feel this way but instead, feel empowered and being capable to guide and lead others. Now in every setting, I am always the one listening and following ppl which actually I dont enjoy very much. Sometimes I wonder is it bcos I am not given opportunities to prove what I may be able to do OR should I just be relieved that I am better off not given the oppt cos at the end of the day, I might just realized I do not have the ability to do so? haiz...
Recently received new case files of my own but have not really started anything with my clients yet cos still waiting for them to call me to book appointment for office interviews after sending out letters. So you can imagine me staring at the phone for it to ring these days. haa. Cant wait to have a hands-on experience with my own clients to have the real taste of what my work will be like man.
Dint get to meet and catch up with some of you since the last time we met. Hope you guys are fine? Exams are coming soon i guess, work hard ok and hope to meet up one day to chill out or something. All the best for now. Keep in touch.
Will be going for staff retreat next mon and tues. Hope it will be an enjoyable getaway experience with other colleagues in the office. I guess life will be more eventful in the future with more upcoming ad-hoc duties and events that will be scheduled along the way.
Everywhere I go now, be it in camp or workplace, I am always the youngest and therefore feeling very inexperienced and small in the presence of others. I shall remember how I feel now and note the changes along the way as time goes. Cos I wonder when I can reach the stage when I no longer will feel this way but instead, feel empowered and being capable to guide and lead others. Now in every setting, I am always the one listening and following ppl which actually I dont enjoy very much. Sometimes I wonder is it bcos I am not given opportunities to prove what I may be able to do OR should I just be relieved that I am better off not given the oppt cos at the end of the day, I might just realized I do not have the ability to do so? haiz...
Recently received new case files of my own but have not really started anything with my clients yet cos still waiting for them to call me to book appointment for office interviews after sending out letters. So you can imagine me staring at the phone for it to ring these days. haa. Cant wait to have a hands-on experience with my own clients to have the real taste of what my work will be like man.
Dint get to meet and catch up with some of you since the last time we met. Hope you guys are fine? Exams are coming soon i guess, work hard ok and hope to meet up one day to chill out or something. All the best for now. Keep in touch.
Saturday, October 21, 2006
Work and stuff...
This week went to a client's house with colleague. The guy suffer from some skin problem, the skin peel all over his house, got open wounds on his skin too. Then his house got some smell due to poor hygiene. I felt uncomfortable uppn entering his house bcos of the sight of his skin problem, hygiene status of his home and the most unavoidable stench lingering in the house. He has IMH record of social withdrawal and poverty of speech which makes me want to be aware that I cannot harbour any feeling of discrimination and disgust towards him. But I find him quite cute in the end after some conversation with him...but still find him very ke lian given his skin condition.
Don't know what kind of cases will be passed to me to handle man. Scared they see I major in Psychology then will pass me all the psychiatric clients cos I think that is what happened to my colleague. Oh manz. Such clients very hard to handle bcos the information they give might be inaccurate and therefore make it very hard for us to assess their situation. Best is to handle straightfoward case when client is single, poor and old. Worst is to get complicated family case where got alot of things to clarify and deal with.
By the way, my job title is senior community development officer if you guys not yet know what I am doing. Basically, we assess clients' eligibility in meeting up the criteria we have for our social assistance schemes. Though we have some guidelines to fall back on, alot of times the conclusion of a case depends on the officer who is handling it. Some colleagues very strict, very fast close case if never receive the documents needed.... then their performance rating will be quite good lor as they able to finish closing their cases within the stipulated time frame. Quantity seems more impt than quality in this job it seems, from what I see.
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Its a pity that only now den he showed interest in getting back with me. I waited during the first few weeks for that to happen but it never came. Since then, I have moved on and gotten myself readjusted to a carefree life on my own already. Days when I no longer have to prioritize my free days to him anymore, no obligations to follow and no need the extra effort made to consider about another person's thoughts and feelings like before...
If only we have been motivated enough to improve things there and then and avoided the breakup altogether, it would have been better than now to be picking up the bits and pieces all over again... which I am not ready for.
Don't know what kind of cases will be passed to me to handle man. Scared they see I major in Psychology then will pass me all the psychiatric clients cos I think that is what happened to my colleague. Oh manz. Such clients very hard to handle bcos the information they give might be inaccurate and therefore make it very hard for us to assess their situation. Best is to handle straightfoward case when client is single, poor and old. Worst is to get complicated family case where got alot of things to clarify and deal with.
By the way, my job title is senior community development officer if you guys not yet know what I am doing. Basically, we assess clients' eligibility in meeting up the criteria we have for our social assistance schemes. Though we have some guidelines to fall back on, alot of times the conclusion of a case depends on the officer who is handling it. Some colleagues very strict, very fast close case if never receive the documents needed.... then their performance rating will be quite good lor as they able to finish closing their cases within the stipulated time frame. Quantity seems more impt than quality in this job it seems, from what I see.
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Its a pity that only now den he showed interest in getting back with me. I waited during the first few weeks for that to happen but it never came. Since then, I have moved on and gotten myself readjusted to a carefree life on my own already. Days when I no longer have to prioritize my free days to him anymore, no obligations to follow and no need the extra effort made to consider about another person's thoughts and feelings like before...
If only we have been motivated enough to improve things there and then and avoided the breakup altogether, it would have been better than now to be picking up the bits and pieces all over again... which I am not ready for.
Saturday, October 14, 2006
Honeymoon period
Yar the first 2 weeks at work for me is no serious work yet. As much as I am looking forward to handling the cases on my own very soon, I can't imagine how I will be coping then, given the loads of information and knowledge that I need to absorb during the meanwhile. Really alot man. So challenging. So frens, u all studying, I also like studying rite now. Sama sama! Same boat!
Have been tagging along with colleague to go for home visits to see how interviews are done. A really close-up interaction with members at the lower strata of the society. Elderly ppl are really sad case. Hard to get money from children, on the other hand hard to get money from the us (govt) cos we have strict criteria to meet up in order for us to give social assistance. We promote self-reliance and believe that the first level of support is the family and not the govt. Our clients tend to see us as the 'saviours' who can bring them out of their poverty cycle but in actual fact, we have little power in granting them social assistance as supervisor need to approve our recommendations in the end. Not up to us to decide. We are the 'investigators' who explores and dig out information that are needed for us to assess their eligibility for our social assistance schemes. We also act like social workers who need to be involed in other miscellaneous stuff related to our clients as well.
Can forsee my future days to be real busy from what I see from my colleagues. They stayed back, even coming on saturdays to write reports and stuff. Not enough staff to handle the number of cases we are receiving every now and then. They seem overloaded with so many cases and follow-ups to do. I hope my entry can help to unload some of their burdens man. But right now I still feel un-equipped....yet they still keep telling me to enjoy my honeymoon first. I wanna learn as much as I can now so that when real work starts, I can get into the right gear straight away la.
My mum says poor ppl have endless stories to tell as poverty branches out from all kinds of unique circumstances. As for the rich ppl, they only have one happy story to tell.
Have been tagging along with colleague to go for home visits to see how interviews are done. A really close-up interaction with members at the lower strata of the society. Elderly ppl are really sad case. Hard to get money from children, on the other hand hard to get money from the us (govt) cos we have strict criteria to meet up in order for us to give social assistance. We promote self-reliance and believe that the first level of support is the family and not the govt. Our clients tend to see us as the 'saviours' who can bring them out of their poverty cycle but in actual fact, we have little power in granting them social assistance as supervisor need to approve our recommendations in the end. Not up to us to decide. We are the 'investigators' who explores and dig out information that are needed for us to assess their eligibility for our social assistance schemes. We also act like social workers who need to be involed in other miscellaneous stuff related to our clients as well.
Can forsee my future days to be real busy from what I see from my colleagues. They stayed back, even coming on saturdays to write reports and stuff. Not enough staff to handle the number of cases we are receiving every now and then. They seem overloaded with so many cases and follow-ups to do. I hope my entry can help to unload some of their burdens man. But right now I still feel un-equipped....yet they still keep telling me to enjoy my honeymoon first. I wanna learn as much as I can now so that when real work starts, I can get into the right gear straight away la.
My mum says poor ppl have endless stories to tell as poverty branches out from all kinds of unique circumstances. As for the rich ppl, they only have one happy story to tell.
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
All-in-1 except 1
Our most impt leader in the camp wasnt in the pic. He took these individual pics, made this wallpaper yet dint include himself. haiyo...
(phil, can guess which one is the nu qiang ren that I told u abt?)
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Back from NACLI.
Tomorrow will be the start of my work. Excited and nervous at the same time, which is what many of my campmates are feeling too.
Met quite nice ppl from the camp esp my 2 room mates. Every nite back to our room after our respective group project discussion, we will share our woes, complaints and stuff. The last nite in the chalet, we gossip like hell till 5 am after returning from a late ktv outing at marina square. haha...
The camp is pretty much like a student's camp we had back in school days. Got games to play, outdoor cooking, lectures etc. Even got scandals here and there! In a year's time, I will get to attend a 3 days 2 nites OBS camp! can U believe it? haha....OBS is under PA as well, so its part of an enrichment program for all PA staff. Good for me as I am one who will never get selected to go for such camp in my school days. So getting the chance to attend such challenging camp is a privilege for me! Quite excited abt it.
A new beginning shall start from this moment. Finally.
Met quite nice ppl from the camp esp my 2 room mates. Every nite back to our room after our respective group project discussion, we will share our woes, complaints and stuff. The last nite in the chalet, we gossip like hell till 5 am after returning from a late ktv outing at marina square. haha...
The camp is pretty much like a student's camp we had back in school days. Got games to play, outdoor cooking, lectures etc. Even got scandals here and there! In a year's time, I will get to attend a 3 days 2 nites OBS camp! can U believe it? haha....OBS is under PA as well, so its part of an enrichment program for all PA staff. Good for me as I am one who will never get selected to go for such camp in my school days. So getting the chance to attend such challenging camp is a privilege for me! Quite excited abt it.
A new beginning shall start from this moment. Finally.
Saturday, September 30, 2006
Weekend break
Finally back to the comfort of my home!!! Next week 5 days camp to go!! AAhhhhh......
Probably too many nitty gritty details that I can say abt the camp which I will not say here. Got alot of talks throughout the camp to tell us the many divisions of PA, the functions and roles blah blah blah which I usually switch off midway. Dun like to listen to wat the goals and wat core values of the association larh. So idealistic. At the end of day, its just about putting in your best to whatever you are required to do, and if better, do more if you can!
Besides that, got team building games which I enjoy more. Kayaking at sea sports club too which is quite tiring but pretty enjoyable. But next week quite scary leh, heard one outdoor activity need to hold on to a rope and swing to another end and drop urself onto a platform one. If dun drop correctly, will fall into a pond. eeeekk....dunno can or not leh. Then every nite got project discussion as by the end of the camp, will need to present to a group of directors man. Aiya they are just making use of us to churn out new ideas to implement in the organization lar. dumb.
A fren asked me any cute guys around. Well 30 ppl in total. Around 12 guys here. Pretty good mix rite. Mostly in the 20s with some exceptions. So a pretty much young group lor. hmm... my definition of 'cute' is different from how some others use to desribe cute guys lar. It is not based on a physical attribute but come from within. Like I find one guy cute bcos he speaks in a very hokkien style, always laughing from ear to ear and very easygoing. He dun have to try to crack jokes and the way he speaks alr very funny. hahaa
Being in a camp, you have to socialize every minute of the day. Easy for you if you are an extrovert. For me, if i am tired or moody, I dun bother to socialize unless u urself come forward to talk to me. I feel that within girls, a certain sense of hostility can occur once impression is set. If you feel that you cannot click with this person, you will find urself avoiding or not taking the initiative to talk more to the person after that. I dunno whether some of you know what I mean. Thats why they always say that girls have a hard time working under a female superior cos there is this sense of hostility brewing in the same-gender relationship. This does not occur between a girl and a boy. Bcos of the innate difference between the two genders, there is a form of attraction that spark off naturally regardless of the initial impression formed. Its like 'I may not like you but bcos you are a different gender, I am curious and want to know more about you'. This then triggers further interaction. It is also of the fact that guys feel the need to take charge so they will take initiative to strike a conversation with you. Such dynamics does not frequently occur among girls. Funny. Then among boys, it seems different again. Guys bcum 'brothers' easily after sing song talk cock. There is less of bitching around as compared to girls. U know what I mean?
Alrite enough of that.....i am tired of typing la. Want to treasure this weekend fully b4 going thru another 5 days of camp once again..... Gambateh!
Probably too many nitty gritty details that I can say abt the camp which I will not say here. Got alot of talks throughout the camp to tell us the many divisions of PA, the functions and roles blah blah blah which I usually switch off midway. Dun like to listen to wat the goals and wat core values of the association larh. So idealistic. At the end of day, its just about putting in your best to whatever you are required to do, and if better, do more if you can!
Besides that, got team building games which I enjoy more. Kayaking at sea sports club too which is quite tiring but pretty enjoyable. But next week quite scary leh, heard one outdoor activity need to hold on to a rope and swing to another end and drop urself onto a platform one. If dun drop correctly, will fall into a pond. eeeekk....dunno can or not leh. Then every nite got project discussion as by the end of the camp, will need to present to a group of directors man. Aiya they are just making use of us to churn out new ideas to implement in the organization lar. dumb.
A fren asked me any cute guys around. Well 30 ppl in total. Around 12 guys here. Pretty good mix rite. Mostly in the 20s with some exceptions. So a pretty much young group lor. hmm... my definition of 'cute' is different from how some others use to desribe cute guys lar. It is not based on a physical attribute but come from within. Like I find one guy cute bcos he speaks in a very hokkien style, always laughing from ear to ear and very easygoing. He dun have to try to crack jokes and the way he speaks alr very funny. hahaa
Being in a camp, you have to socialize every minute of the day. Easy for you if you are an extrovert. For me, if i am tired or moody, I dun bother to socialize unless u urself come forward to talk to me. I feel that within girls, a certain sense of hostility can occur once impression is set. If you feel that you cannot click with this person, you will find urself avoiding or not taking the initiative to talk more to the person after that. I dunno whether some of you know what I mean. Thats why they always say that girls have a hard time working under a female superior cos there is this sense of hostility brewing in the same-gender relationship. This does not occur between a girl and a boy. Bcos of the innate difference between the two genders, there is a form of attraction that spark off naturally regardless of the initial impression formed. Its like 'I may not like you but bcos you are a different gender, I am curious and want to know more about you'. This then triggers further interaction. It is also of the fact that guys feel the need to take charge so they will take initiative to strike a conversation with you. Such dynamics does not frequently occur among girls. Funny. Then among boys, it seems different again. Guys bcum 'brothers' easily after sing song talk cock. There is less of bitching around as compared to girls. U know what I mean?
Alrite enough of that.....i am tired of typing la. Want to treasure this weekend fully b4 going thru another 5 days of camp once again..... Gambateh!
Saturday, September 23, 2006
Little here and there...
Though its only the 2nd lesson of Salsa beginner's class that I have attended, I think I am liking it and can't wait to learn more of the fanciful moves soon! Yar currently taking up a beginner's class after being asked to join together with a fren. I now feel glad that he has asked me if not it will be dunno until when I will be going to take up this dance which I have been so curious about all along. Now I am already thinking what is going to be next after the 5 lessons that would be finished in a few weeks time. I really hope to continue.
Hope to take up any other dance classes like Jazz, Hip hop or exotic dance in the future. So pls ask me along for any of such if you need company to learn together! I tink dance is a source of good workout and entertainment for the self. I wish I have been more serious in taking up dancing when I am younger. But I still think its never too late to learn anything that you want. Remember that for every moment that you are hesitating, time is ticking away! So pls dun pause and consider any longer, frens! Rem someone telling me this: For things that you can do it today, why wait until tomorrow to do? Do it now! Feel the urgency of time. Nothing is ever too late or early to start!
Hmm...anyway just to inform, will be going for an induction camp for my work for the coming two weeks but will be back home in the weekends. Funny rite? Got orientation camp for work somemore. So off. haha. Hope to meet some nice ppl around esp new ppl who will be working in the same branch as me man. Nonetheless, feeling abit sian to be away for so many days with dunno how many other strangers. Cannot command the usage of my own time, waking up early, the amt of clothes to bring, cannot go swimming with my frens in the morning from den + other unspoken rules and obligations. lalalaaa.....aiyaah watever larh...anyway my motto for life now is to embrace whatever that is coming my way. Keeping an open mind!
You guys take care and hang on to whatever you are doing ok?
Hope to take up any other dance classes like Jazz, Hip hop or exotic dance in the future. So pls ask me along for any of such if you need company to learn together! I tink dance is a source of good workout and entertainment for the self. I wish I have been more serious in taking up dancing when I am younger. But I still think its never too late to learn anything that you want. Remember that for every moment that you are hesitating, time is ticking away! So pls dun pause and consider any longer, frens! Rem someone telling me this: For things that you can do it today, why wait until tomorrow to do? Do it now! Feel the urgency of time. Nothing is ever too late or early to start!
Hmm...anyway just to inform, will be going for an induction camp for my work for the coming two weeks but will be back home in the weekends. Funny rite? Got orientation camp for work somemore. So off. haha. Hope to meet some nice ppl around esp new ppl who will be working in the same branch as me man. Nonetheless, feeling abit sian to be away for so many days with dunno how many other strangers. Cannot command the usage of my own time, waking up early, the amt of clothes to bring, cannot go swimming with my frens in the morning from den + other unspoken rules and obligations. lalalaaa.....aiyaah watever larh...anyway my motto for life now is to embrace whatever that is coming my way. Keeping an open mind!
You guys take care and hang on to whatever you are doing ok?
Monday, September 18, 2006
Here without you
Issit the physical affection, the sense of belonging, the need to be wanted and loved by someone special that we both are missing about?
If the feeling does not come from truly wanting to be with the person and no one else, I rather not go back to where we begin...
Bcos any other person can well fulfill those basic needs that you and I are looking for....it's only a matter of time and patience to wait for this other person to come along our way.
It hurts to be a rational thinker when I have to separate the components of love just for the fear that history can repeat itself...
It's so easy for us to get back together but is that what we really want?
Frienship lasts longer than love....
though the form of happiness can never be the same again.
Am I yearning for you or simply the feeling to be loved?
(A penny for your thoughts too, yokie. )
If the feeling does not come from truly wanting to be with the person and no one else, I rather not go back to where we begin...
Bcos any other person can well fulfill those basic needs that you and I are looking for....it's only a matter of time and patience to wait for this other person to come along our way.
It hurts to be a rational thinker when I have to separate the components of love just for the fear that history can repeat itself...
It's so easy for us to get back together but is that what we really want?
Frienship lasts longer than love....
though the form of happiness can never be the same again.
Am I yearning for you or simply the feeling to be loved?
(A penny for your thoughts too, yokie. )
Thursday, September 14, 2006
"Quotes of the day"
Upon telling a new fren that my sis is working as a model, her immediate reaction is classic:
"What happened to you????" - with big shocking eyes and wide gaping mouth that refuses to shut.
(oh pls... save that exaggerated look, wat do u want me to answer? gene defect...possibly??)
That led me to recall someone telling me this recently-
"Hmm...your mum and dad looks quite good looking actually, not bad....and its obvious that all the good genes get passed to ur sis."
(Hey phil, thanks leh.)
Not to mention someone ever asking me whether I do feel inferior in comparison to my modelling sis?
(ohhh..no one reminded me to!!!! darn.)
Then I rem a gal fren telling me this-
"Hey you look nice in skirts.......(oh reali?)...yeahz.... bcos ur legs are not thin."
(wwwwaaiitt....are you complimenting me or wattt??!!)
Luckily in life, there will always be some kind souls sticking by and saying nice things like-
"Actually I like your features more than your sis...you are one pretty gal already! "
(AAAwwwww.......)
Suddenly, the dark gloomy clouds seems to show a gleam of bright light....hinting to me that life is not that unfair after all.
I laugh to myself and life goes on...
"What happened to you????" - with big shocking eyes and wide gaping mouth that refuses to shut.
(oh pls... save that exaggerated look, wat do u want me to answer? gene defect...possibly??)
That led me to recall someone telling me this recently-
"Hmm...your mum and dad looks quite good looking actually, not bad....and its obvious that all the good genes get passed to ur sis."
(Hey phil, thanks leh.)
Not to mention someone ever asking me whether I do feel inferior in comparison to my modelling sis?
(ohhh..no one reminded me to!!!! darn.)
Then I rem a gal fren telling me this-
"Hey you look nice in skirts.......(oh reali?)...yeahz.... bcos ur legs are not thin."
(wwwwaaiitt....are you complimenting me or wattt??!!)
Luckily in life, there will always be some kind souls sticking by and saying nice things like-
"Actually I like your features more than your sis...you are one pretty gal already! "
(AAAwwwww.......)
Suddenly, the dark gloomy clouds seems to show a gleam of bright light....hinting to me that life is not that unfair after all.
I laugh to myself and life goes on...
Monday, September 11, 2006
Snap it!
Nothing to blog about recently so will just post 2 pics that I have taken in MOS few weeks back for u all to see. Just received the pics from Huimin and this got me excited all over again. hahaz.
If you have watched Superband, u shld be able to recognize who the guys in the pic are. Quite blur pics though.
They are cute! Pretty boys.
With Yokie and her friends.
The clearest photo of all bcos not taken by us...by those hired photographers from some company websites.
If you have watched Superband, u shld be able to recognize who the guys in the pic are. Quite blur pics though.
They are cute! Pretty boys.
With Yokie and her friends.
The clearest photo of all bcos not taken by us...by those hired photographers from some company websites.
Friday, September 08, 2006
Stuck
I can't get out of bed today
Or get you off my mind
I just can't seem to find a way
To leave the love behind
I ain't trippin
I'm just missing
You know what I'm saying
You know what I mean
You kept me hanging on a string
Why you make me cry
I try to give you everything
But you just gave me lies
Every now and then
When I'm all alone
I'll be wishing you will call me on the telephone
Say you want me back
But you never do
I feel like such a fool
There's nothing I can do..
I'm such a fool
For you
[Chorus:]
I can't take it
What am I waiting for?
My hearts still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can't fake it
The way I could be for
I hate you but I love you
I can't stop thinking of you [last time x2]
It's true
I'm stuck on you
My love's a broken record that's
Been skipping in my head
I keep singing yesterday
Why we've got to play these games we play?
(Sung by Stacie Orrico)
Or get you off my mind
I just can't seem to find a way
To leave the love behind
I ain't trippin
I'm just missing
You know what I'm saying
You know what I mean
You kept me hanging on a string
Why you make me cry
I try to give you everything
But you just gave me lies
Every now and then
When I'm all alone
I'll be wishing you will call me on the telephone
Say you want me back
But you never do
I feel like such a fool
There's nothing I can do..
I'm such a fool
For you
[Chorus:]
I can't take it
What am I waiting for?
My hearts still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can't fake it
The way I could be for
I hate you but I love you
I can't stop thinking of you [last time x2]
It's true
I'm stuck on you
My love's a broken record that's
Been skipping in my head
I keep singing yesterday
Why we've got to play these games we play?
(Sung by Stacie Orrico)
Monday, September 04, 2006
Unpredictable
Steve Irwin has unfortunately passed away. The famous crocodile hunter cum wildlife explorer. Attacked by a stingray right in his chest.
The world needs more ppl like him and now there is one less of him.........
Aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh....felt such deep sense of pity and sadness after knowing this news.
He is such a great man who has enormous enthusiasm and spirit for his interest in wild animals. Yet this has to happen.....if animals have humanistic instincts, they would have loved him and not hurt him.
Pls take care of yourselves, friends! Don't want anything to happen to you all!!
The world needs more ppl like him and now there is one less of him.........
Aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh....felt such deep sense of pity and sadness after knowing this news.
He is such a great man who has enormous enthusiasm and spirit for his interest in wild animals. Yet this has to happen.....if animals have humanistic instincts, they would have loved him and not hurt him.
Pls take care of yourselves, friends! Don't want anything to happen to you all!!
Saturday, September 02, 2006
Catharsis
Ppl who write blogs are narcissistic. I am one too. It's the outlet where I can get some attention from everyone to me alone. It is the place where I can say certain things which otherwise I dun get to share in normal circumstances.
Even without reaching the end of this year, I can truthfully declare my best song of the year is "Because of you" by Kelly Clarkson. I don't believe any other song can replace this climatic one in the next few mths to come, at least in my heart. I am sure some of you might agree with me too. I simply love songs that have climax which can make your heart cringe and make you want to sing loudly together with it. In my words, songs that can give you 'orgasm' is good.
Singing is a perfect source of outlet to outwardly express one's pent up emotions. I just wish I have a much better and nicer voice. Infact, any other musical instruments have the ability to achieve that. Even drama acting too.
It's a form of catharsis. Just like writing blogs.
Pls don't see me as one pathetic soul having so much pent up emotions that I wish to release. I may sound like I am but more often than not, I manage to be a rational thinker who don't self-indulge in own misery, if any.
Even without reaching the end of this year, I can truthfully declare my best song of the year is "Because of you" by Kelly Clarkson. I don't believe any other song can replace this climatic one in the next few mths to come, at least in my heart. I am sure some of you might agree with me too. I simply love songs that have climax which can make your heart cringe and make you want to sing loudly together with it. In my words, songs that can give you 'orgasm' is good.
Singing is a perfect source of outlet to outwardly express one's pent up emotions. I just wish I have a much better and nicer voice. Infact, any other musical instruments have the ability to achieve that. Even drama acting too.
It's a form of catharsis. Just like writing blogs.
Pls don't see me as one pathetic soul having so much pent up emotions that I wish to release. I may sound like I am but more often than not, I manage to be a rational thinker who don't self-indulge in own misery, if any.
Friday, September 01, 2006
lame quiz
| Love is most important in your life. A high love concentration indicates that you want love in your life. It is very important to you and something that you strive to attain.  Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com |
Yes I am as boliao as San to go take such quiz during my lazy times and here is my result which differs very much from hers.
Aiya....the reason why my family proportion so low is bcos those qns pertaining to me not that relevant since my relatives dun reali live near to me so that prob explains the low percentage value.
In a long term perspective, I should think that career is the most impt to me since most part of one's life is dedicated to your work so its impt that u are able to cultivate an interest in ur job!
I wouldnt dare to say love is impt to me anymore after the recent letdown.
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Pics and all
I quite like this blogskin so dun think will change for now though with this slightly new blog add that I have changed to.
As requested by phil, shall upload those pics that we took recently. Are you all able to save it from my blog or not huh? dun think so rite?? how to make it available for u all to save directly from my blog huh? tell me leh. I use photobucket to upload one so think cannot rite.
Yet another farewell to Jingya. Looking fwd to your return already, girl!
Phil with his chao beng look and JY with her seemingly teary eye.
I simply love the matching outfit of yokie and phil! Good job, guys! heheee
JY with her red hot cheeks simply after just one small glass of dunno what white russian drink that she ordered. Oh manz...
The boy behind me is simply deliciously cute.
As requested by phil, shall upload those pics that we took recently. Are you all able to save it from my blog or not huh? dun think so rite?? how to make it available for u all to save directly from my blog huh? tell me leh. I use photobucket to upload one so think cannot rite.
Yet another farewell to Jingya. Looking fwd to your return already, girl!
Phil with his chao beng look and JY with her seemingly teary eye.
I simply love the matching outfit of yokie and phil! Good job, guys! heheee
JY with her red hot cheeks simply after just one small glass of dunno what white russian drink that she ordered. Oh manz...
The boy behind me is simply deliciously cute.
Monday, August 28, 2006
Embrace
Yea. Can't wait for my work to start so as to get into the real mood of my new phase of life. Don't like to be dangling here and there, waiting for things to happen. Ya i have been offered a job after all the waiting time and interviews and dilemmas that i have undergone. Prob will talk more abt my job when i realli got started on my work in around a few weeks' time. So excited and apprehensive at the same time man.
For right now, dun realli miss school at all. instead feel relieved that i dun have to get involved in those bidding rounds and the purchasing of textbooks and doing tutorials. haha. well u guys hang on yar? u will reach the stage i am at very soon lar. so endure man!! work hard, enjoy and have fun lar then u wun feel that u are suffering alone.
wonder what i will do for the next few weeks man. definitely wanna brush up my hokkien which i dun reali know how to go about mastering it proficiently bcos i dun have the envt to learn it naturally. sad case. yar i want to master it well so that i can better cope with my job duties. hmm...will be going out with some frens whom i promise to meet up with too. haiz....but money wise i reali have to take note too cos will be living the next 2 mths on the last pay that I have gotten which is gonna be insufficient lar. sianz....money money money. if only they grow on trees....wahaha..
anyway can reali feel the presence and existence of frens who have met up with me to catch up and stuff these days. they are really there! haha. not invisible. thanks lovely ppl! neva reali felt this way in the past....oppss...hehe
after got a job, can then plan properly on the lifestyle that i want to lead. def wan to take some fitness classes to keep myself active or relevant lessons that are useful to my work or life. reali hope i will have the motivation den. dun wanna end up a routine lifestyle in the end.
yea. will keep an open mind now to everything that is going to come my way! Same to u ppl!!!
Life is really a gift!!
For right now, dun realli miss school at all. instead feel relieved that i dun have to get involved in those bidding rounds and the purchasing of textbooks and doing tutorials. haha. well u guys hang on yar? u will reach the stage i am at very soon lar. so endure man!! work hard, enjoy and have fun lar then u wun feel that u are suffering alone.
wonder what i will do for the next few weeks man. definitely wanna brush up my hokkien which i dun reali know how to go about mastering it proficiently bcos i dun have the envt to learn it naturally. sad case. yar i want to master it well so that i can better cope with my job duties. hmm...will be going out with some frens whom i promise to meet up with too. haiz....but money wise i reali have to take note too cos will be living the next 2 mths on the last pay that I have gotten which is gonna be insufficient lar. sianz....money money money. if only they grow on trees....wahaha..
anyway can reali feel the presence and existence of frens who have met up with me to catch up and stuff these days. they are really there! haha. not invisible. thanks lovely ppl! neva reali felt this way in the past....oppss...hehe
after got a job, can then plan properly on the lifestyle that i want to lead. def wan to take some fitness classes to keep myself active or relevant lessons that are useful to my work or life. reali hope i will have the motivation den. dun wanna end up a routine lifestyle in the end.
yea. will keep an open mind now to everything that is going to come my way! Same to u ppl!!!
Life is really a gift!!
Thursday, August 17, 2006
the game of love....
its not fun at all. its bittersweet.
i can never understand why some ppl can go play for so many times.
it can get you so high for one moment, and get you so down on the other.
indeed, theres a price to pay for this game. if u are not willing to pay to sacrifice ur personal freedom sufficiently, u lose the game totally.
it was game over for me in shorter time period than i ve expected. the only comfort is that at least i tried...
i kept thinking whether the cause of it was that i was an incompetent player but i was told that problem usually dun just lie solely on one.
like wat many have told me, playing once will make you a better and stronger player for the next new game to come... i believe in that and will be working twds this goal.
i told myself that for my next game, i will try to give my best to make it work out strong so that i will not need to experience another gameover anymore.
i now understd why some ppl like to play this game for just once in their whole life rather than trying a few. Cos each gameover is heartbreaking, painful and saddening.
during certain time of the game, i had my insecurities and uncertainties but never got enough clarifications or reassurance that can help to appease that. all i gotten was lukewarm responses and indecisiveness that make me feel even more disheartened.......
i waited for a twist in the fate of the game but it never gives me renewed confidence to move on. instead, it continues to reaffirm that most of my negative assumptions were right after all, given the action and attitude of the game...
i came to realize that there was in actual fact no strong intention from him to want to offer any form of reassurance to comfort my doubts which i have come to rationalize the possibility that something is wrong...
i learnt the ugly truth which actuali hurts me very much deep down. though it sets me thinking the whole night, it is what motivates me to want to be a stronger and better person...
believe me, i really dont wish for the game to end so soon but the process of playing just makes me feel that the most important element that i thot was present all along was losing its strength after all. i can feel it and it affected me. i want reassurance but it never came.
i found the courage to let go of this promising game by holding on to the belief that a much deserving player someday will replace me to play an even more exciting game with him while i shall seek for my new form of happiness all over again...
we took the easiest way out not knowing how to resolve the issues we faced. though it looks like its a mutual agreement, in my opinion, i feel more like its a one-sided wish .
some say we prob are still not mature enough to handle differences which are bound to exist in any relationship. the level of maturity wasn't sufficient enough. if so, wat a shame.
or maybe in today's society, there are just too many choices and temptations that are luring us from our comfort zone to explore the new and the fun out there...if it is, den so be it.
my mum think the cause is due to the former...i thot its more to the latter from what i see...talk abt faithfulness....its bullshit. humans are just so greedy and selfish by nature. i feel like telling ppl esp those with X and Y chromosomes in ur genes: if you think you are one who will be easily attracted to the oppt sex in the process of making new frens, den you had beta restrained yourself from getting a partner in the first place!!!!! it must never work the other way round whereby you got a partner and restrain urself from making new frens of the oppt sex bcos subconsciously you are afraid that you might be unfaithful when the situation arises!!!
nearing breakup, couples tend to focus on recalling evidences from the past to support their case and this further continues after breakup to make oneself feel that the decision is indeed a right one. happy memories now only serve to hurt and thus will be erased...
building back my self esteem to regain myself back in full force... no more hard feelings. scold me if you want...
motivated to work twds a better and happier me for the next phase of life to come!
to all my attached frens: must persevere in ur relationship as long as there is still love between the both of you!
to all my single frens: Kambateh! i really hope to see you guys having found your true love before i do! that is enough to make me feel blissful alredi, reallly!!!!
love is still in the air!
i can never understand why some ppl can go play for so many times.
it can get you so high for one moment, and get you so down on the other.
indeed, theres a price to pay for this game. if u are not willing to pay to sacrifice ur personal freedom sufficiently, u lose the game totally.
it was game over for me in shorter time period than i ve expected. the only comfort is that at least i tried...
i kept thinking whether the cause of it was that i was an incompetent player but i was told that problem usually dun just lie solely on one.
like wat many have told me, playing once will make you a better and stronger player for the next new game to come... i believe in that and will be working twds this goal.
i told myself that for my next game, i will try to give my best to make it work out strong so that i will not need to experience another gameover anymore.
i now understd why some ppl like to play this game for just once in their whole life rather than trying a few. Cos each gameover is heartbreaking, painful and saddening.
during certain time of the game, i had my insecurities and uncertainties but never got enough clarifications or reassurance that can help to appease that. all i gotten was lukewarm responses and indecisiveness that make me feel even more disheartened.......
i waited for a twist in the fate of the game but it never gives me renewed confidence to move on. instead, it continues to reaffirm that most of my negative assumptions were right after all, given the action and attitude of the game...
i came to realize that there was in actual fact no strong intention from him to want to offer any form of reassurance to comfort my doubts which i have come to rationalize the possibility that something is wrong...
i learnt the ugly truth which actuali hurts me very much deep down. though it sets me thinking the whole night, it is what motivates me to want to be a stronger and better person...
believe me, i really dont wish for the game to end so soon but the process of playing just makes me feel that the most important element that i thot was present all along was losing its strength after all. i can feel it and it affected me. i want reassurance but it never came.
i found the courage to let go of this promising game by holding on to the belief that a much deserving player someday will replace me to play an even more exciting game with him while i shall seek for my new form of happiness all over again...
we took the easiest way out not knowing how to resolve the issues we faced. though it looks like its a mutual agreement, in my opinion, i feel more like its a one-sided wish .
some say we prob are still not mature enough to handle differences which are bound to exist in any relationship. the level of maturity wasn't sufficient enough. if so, wat a shame.
or maybe in today's society, there are just too many choices and temptations that are luring us from our comfort zone to explore the new and the fun out there...if it is, den so be it.
my mum think the cause is due to the former...i thot its more to the latter from what i see...talk abt faithfulness....its bullshit. humans are just so greedy and selfish by nature. i feel like telling ppl esp those with X and Y chromosomes in ur genes: if you think you are one who will be easily attracted to the oppt sex in the process of making new frens, den you had beta restrained yourself from getting a partner in the first place!!!!! it must never work the other way round whereby you got a partner and restrain urself from making new frens of the oppt sex bcos subconsciously you are afraid that you might be unfaithful when the situation arises!!!
nearing breakup, couples tend to focus on recalling evidences from the past to support their case and this further continues after breakup to make oneself feel that the decision is indeed a right one. happy memories now only serve to hurt and thus will be erased...
building back my self esteem to regain myself back in full force... no more hard feelings. scold me if you want...
motivated to work twds a better and happier me for the next phase of life to come!
to all my attached frens: must persevere in ur relationship as long as there is still love between the both of you!
to all my single frens: Kambateh! i really hope to see you guys having found your true love before i do! that is enough to make me feel blissful alredi, reallly!!!!
love is still in the air!
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Support!
Pls buy the latest issue of NewMan Magazine for a simple reason that my sis is on the cover page!!
Yeah check her out at the newstand and buy one lor! Put her page on your cabinet door or something!
If you happen to get hold of the latest issue of DUET by SDU, my sis is on the cover page too!
Happy viewing!
[a cautionary note: dont bother to try to spot any resemblance between my sis and me, it wld only cause you great disturbance. thanks. ]
Yeah check her out at the newstand and buy one lor! Put her page on your cabinet door or something!
If you happen to get hold of the latest issue of DUET by SDU, my sis is on the cover page too!
Happy viewing!
[a cautionary note: dont bother to try to spot any resemblance between my sis and me, it wld only cause you great disturbance. thanks. ]
Sunday, August 13, 2006
New phase
Never did I know effective communication can be so hard to achieve. To think that I have always thought speaking one's mind is easy. It's really not.
No two persons are similar. We each have our differences. But exactly how much differences is just too much to take?
To give up or to persevere? Let him go and each to his own?
We live for ourselves. But for the most of it, we are actaully living to the expectations of others. Others...him...they....
Should i wait for a possible 2nd job offer or just accept the first? Forgo the first, I may just lose the 2nd. Sometimes, timing can just be so cruel to us.
If only life is really just live to eat...
I hate making decisions like that.
Cos I dunno whats best for the two of us.
I dunno whats best for me.
I dun wish to think.
Dun wish to decide.
I have always hoped that there is such a logical thinking computer system that can help ppl to weigh issues and decide for them the better route to take for the best outcome. But there again, is there such a thing as the best outcome?
No two persons are similar. We each have our differences. But exactly how much differences is just too much to take?
To give up or to persevere? Let him go and each to his own?
We live for ourselves. But for the most of it, we are actaully living to the expectations of others. Others...him...they....
Should i wait for a possible 2nd job offer or just accept the first? Forgo the first, I may just lose the 2nd. Sometimes, timing can just be so cruel to us.
If only life is really just live to eat...
I hate making decisions like that.
Cos I dunno whats best for the two of us.
I dunno whats best for me.
I dun wish to think.
Dun wish to decide.
I have always hoped that there is such a logical thinking computer system that can help ppl to weigh issues and decide for them the better route to take for the best outcome. But there again, is there such a thing as the best outcome?
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Office no-politics
After being requested to stay week after week by my boss bcos of some delay of hiring a perm staff, I have been here for near to 2 mths as compared to the initial thought that I will only be here for a few days to a few weeks then 1 mth then until now. What an irony.
I am lucky to having met some nice people here who brighten up my otherwise antisocial life in my enclosed office cubicle. Thanks to the opportunity that people from other departments need to come find me to get corporate gifts and borrow camera that I got to know that there are actually many other humans in the different departments of this company. hhaaa..
Among them, I oso get to know the existence of other temp staff and subsequently become lunching partners with. With them around, I get to have ppl dropping by my cubicle to chat with me once awhile, go pantry for milo, eat Hello Panda biscuits and even drop email to go toilet together! For once, that playful colleague even drops a mysterious note on my table while I am not around to ask me to guess who she is! Then there is this super friendly colleague who cant wait to lunch with me someday so as to -know more about me- in conquest of some -secret mission- of hers. Among other perm staff, there is one kind colleague who even introduced me to websites that she thought I would be interested to apply jobs from. And for that, I recently got a job interview and offer after applying with that organization. Thanks to her recommendation man. Probably might talk more about my job searching process next time round or something... Den not to forget one who intro me to web-based messenger that I can use to chat during work. Win already lor..
Thats why I say that if not for all these human interaction that I get to enjoy during my office days, I think my office life would be dead boring for me, with that kind of -workload- that I am under. Literally bored to the death of me. Thanks goodness. Tomorrow should be officially my last day if there is no further changes to be expected.
Thanks to Jenny as well who was my occasional lunch partner from time to time but seldom now bcos its either she got company lunch or I already agreed to lunch with my colleagues nowadays, and shiying for that two to three times that we managed to meet up with too. haha
I am lucky to having met some nice people here who brighten up my otherwise antisocial life in my enclosed office cubicle. Thanks to the opportunity that people from other departments need to come find me to get corporate gifts and borrow camera that I got to know that there are actually many other humans in the different departments of this company. hhaaa..
Among them, I oso get to know the existence of other temp staff and subsequently become lunching partners with. With them around, I get to have ppl dropping by my cubicle to chat with me once awhile, go pantry for milo, eat Hello Panda biscuits and even drop email to go toilet together! For once, that playful colleague even drops a mysterious note on my table while I am not around to ask me to guess who she is! Then there is this super friendly colleague who cant wait to lunch with me someday so as to -know more about me- in conquest of some -secret mission- of hers. Among other perm staff, there is one kind colleague who even introduced me to websites that she thought I would be interested to apply jobs from. And for that, I recently got a job interview and offer after applying with that organization. Thanks to her recommendation man. Probably might talk more about my job searching process next time round or something... Den not to forget one who intro me to web-based messenger that I can use to chat during work. Win already lor..
Thats why I say that if not for all these human interaction that I get to enjoy during my office days, I think my office life would be dead boring for me, with that kind of -workload- that I am under. Literally bored to the death of me. Thanks goodness. Tomorrow should be officially my last day if there is no further changes to be expected.
Thanks to Jenny as well who was my occasional lunch partner from time to time but seldom now bcos its either she got company lunch or I already agreed to lunch with my colleagues nowadays, and shiying for that two to three times that we managed to meet up with too. haha
Monday, July 31, 2006
Contradictory
To be paid well isnt really my main concern for my first few years of work, given my choice to work in the social services sector where I should already be expected to get a not-that-fantastic pay plus having to work in the weekends if I am working in voluntary welfare organizations.
However I do not wish to be exploited of my time and labour that is not compatible with my pay. For god's sake, dont tell me about passion and the desire to help the needys that one should be all willing to give more than one should. My time doesn't belong to public's use. Charity starts from home. The least that I can do is to first provide available resources to help myself and my family to be self-sufficient and not needed to be dependent on the govt or the social services for financial assistance thereafter. Plus there is always this order of charity. Like my mum always say, if every person in the society can learn just to take care of themselves first, societal problems would be so greatly reduced.
Dun be mistaken. i ve not started work yet. Just wanna be psychologically equipped for whatever it takes to be in my desired kind of work if I were to be recruited.
I am really no fussy inflexible person who cant take hard chores. I merely appreciate BALANCE in life which I dun see as too much to ask for.
However I do not wish to be exploited of my time and labour that is not compatible with my pay. For god's sake, dont tell me about passion and the desire to help the needys that one should be all willing to give more than one should. My time doesn't belong to public's use. Charity starts from home. The least that I can do is to first provide available resources to help myself and my family to be self-sufficient and not needed to be dependent on the govt or the social services for financial assistance thereafter. Plus there is always this order of charity. Like my mum always say, if every person in the society can learn just to take care of themselves first, societal problems would be so greatly reduced.
Dun be mistaken. i ve not started work yet. Just wanna be psychologically equipped for whatever it takes to be in my desired kind of work if I were to be recruited.
I am really no fussy inflexible person who cant take hard chores. I merely appreciate BALANCE in life which I dun see as too much to ask for.
ps: oh man i am so bored in my temp office, just told to extend my stay here when I feel like asking back, ' y on earth do you wan to employ me for sitting down at the desk, surfing net and writing blog? Are you doing me charity?'
Monday, July 24, 2006
Don't die pls...
My pc is suffering from fever and now cancer. Not long before, it was experiencing internet connection failure due to some human error committed by an internet service provider which I don't think I want to elaborate here incase I get sued for defamatory acts or something.
After sending it to a computer clinic, it has been diagnosed that the fan in the system unit is spoilt, causing the capacitors in the motherboard to leak some metallic liquids, plus potentially the CPU to get burnt also. Darn...what luck.
So to get it repaired, the estimated cost can amount to $500+ if I going to add RAM, get a new motherboard, a fan plus CPU to replace those 'cancerous' parts.
Oh god...Poor PC!!! A major surgery has got to be done to revive you back to life! I wish I had bought you a medical insurance. Arrgghh....
Luckily I do not need to bid for modules now since I have alr graduated if not I will definitely be cursinig and swearing on my bad luck to have my pc in such terrible state during such crucial times.
To comfort me further would be at least that I have my sis' laptop and my office's pc to tide me down for any online thingy that I need at the moment. So still not bad larh...haiz...
But what shitty chance I am landing myself in now that all those computer jargons and knowledge that I have picked up in an introductory module from computing last sem is gonna put to good practical use now that I have to find out more about the prices and different types of the parts that I am going to purchase from computer outlets during this period, (with the help of Yappy of cos).
My 'computer fluency' (as promised by the module's objective) is gonna come in handy now....aahh....
After sending it to a computer clinic, it has been diagnosed that the fan in the system unit is spoilt, causing the capacitors in the motherboard to leak some metallic liquids, plus potentially the CPU to get burnt also. Darn...what luck.
So to get it repaired, the estimated cost can amount to $500+ if I going to add RAM, get a new motherboard, a fan plus CPU to replace those 'cancerous' parts.
Oh god...Poor PC!!! A major surgery has got to be done to revive you back to life! I wish I had bought you a medical insurance. Arrgghh....
Luckily I do not need to bid for modules now since I have alr graduated if not I will definitely be cursinig and swearing on my bad luck to have my pc in such terrible state during such crucial times.
To comfort me further would be at least that I have my sis' laptop and my office's pc to tide me down for any online thingy that I need at the moment. So still not bad larh...haiz...
But what shitty chance I am landing myself in now that all those computer jargons and knowledge that I have picked up in an introductory module from computing last sem is gonna put to good practical use now that I have to find out more about the prices and different types of the parts that I am going to purchase from computer outlets during this period, (with the help of Yappy of cos).
My 'computer fluency' (as promised by the module's objective) is gonna come in handy now....aahh....
Monday, July 17, 2006
Special update
Hey peeps,
I have a new hotmail account! ( duh...as if this is anything great to announce)
Well it is for good reasons that it is being created.
You know hotmail accounts get flooded by unknown sources and spam mails over time and thus it's always good to start afresh every after some years.
Plus, there is even a better reason to change it after every 4 years which I have been doing since 1998.
From cernyfan in 1998 to casillas02 in 2002, this year I am going to change it to cannavar06 in 2006. ( the 0 is number zero)
For seemingly smart alecks out there, you might have guessed correctly that those names are adopted from the names of the footballers in the Worldcup. This is a tradition that I would like to continue in remembrance of each of the season that has kept me something to look forward to amidst mundane routines.
Why those particular footballers among so many others, you might ask? Well they are 'carefully' picked and scrutinized based on some of the unique qualities they possess, which a bulk of them point to their good looks which I am ashamed to admit. heh
Well of cos not wanting to appear as superficial as what stereotypes like to point to girls watching football, I obviously choose them also bcos of their...... nice unique names as well. :>
Ok I think I better stop elaborating on this before some female football fanatics start to bash me up on that.
Nonetheless it is always nice to end this with just a quick note on my new found pick of this Fifa worldcup season- Fabio Cannavaro of the Azzurri team (Italy):
Known to be one of the best central defenders around and also the captain of the team, he is a good reader of the game and has proven himself to be an aggressive and fast player on field.
Despite his height vertically challenged as compared to other players, he exudes confidence when he runs and is widely recognized for his defensive techniques that seldom having to lead to foul.
Here he is:
PS: Do applaud me for my ability to extract time from my office hours to update my blog. I am certainly good at multi-tasking! ( or am i just too free?)
Do try to email me at this newest email address in the future pls! Thanks!
(Happy Birthday Shuwei!!!)
I have a new hotmail account! ( duh...as if this is anything great to announce)
Well it is for good reasons that it is being created.
You know hotmail accounts get flooded by unknown sources and spam mails over time and thus it's always good to start afresh every after some years.
Plus, there is even a better reason to change it after every 4 years which I have been doing since 1998.
From cernyfan in 1998 to casillas02 in 2002, this year I am going to change it to cannavar06 in 2006. ( the 0 is number zero)
For seemingly smart alecks out there, you might have guessed correctly that those names are adopted from the names of the footballers in the Worldcup. This is a tradition that I would like to continue in remembrance of each of the season that has kept me something to look forward to amidst mundane routines.
Why those particular footballers among so many others, you might ask? Well they are 'carefully' picked and scrutinized based on some of the unique qualities they possess, which a bulk of them point to their good looks which I am ashamed to admit. heh
Well of cos not wanting to appear as superficial as what stereotypes like to point to girls watching football, I obviously choose them also bcos of their...... nice unique names as well. :>
Ok I think I better stop elaborating on this before some female football fanatics start to bash me up on that.
Nonetheless it is always nice to end this with just a quick note on my new found pick of this Fifa worldcup season- Fabio Cannavaro of the Azzurri team (Italy):
Known to be one of the best central defenders around and also the captain of the team, he is a good reader of the game and has proven himself to be an aggressive and fast player on field.
Despite his height vertically challenged as compared to other players, he exudes confidence when he runs and is widely recognized for his defensive techniques that seldom having to lead to foul.
Here he is:
PS: Do applaud me for my ability to extract time from my office hours to update my blog. I am certainly good at multi-tasking! ( or am i just too free?)
Do try to email me at this newest email address in the future pls! Thanks!
(Happy Birthday Shuwei!!!)
Thursday, July 13, 2006
The best candid photo
This photo is classic I must show it man. It looks like an impending disaster is inevitable for all in the KTV room except one who looks like she has it all planned out, given her witchy grin.
For a moment I wondered what happened during that time when this photo was taken. Issit that Kenny dropped the wall phone or something? If so, its really a shame for us to produce such exaggerated expression man...but no leh I rem he was the one taking the photo for us wat.
And yea like I said, Phil and JY look kinda alike with the same shape of that tilted mouth and big eyes, dun u think?
For a moment I wondered what happened during that time when this photo was taken. Issit that Kenny dropped the wall phone or something? If so, its really a shame for us to produce such exaggerated expression man...but no leh I rem he was the one taking the photo for us wat.
And yea like I said, Phil and JY look kinda alike with the same shape of that tilted mouth and big eyes, dun u think?
Monday, July 10, 2006
The inevitable...
To me, its very important for a movie/show to have some sort of a proper ending rather than a tail for you to run your imagination wild. I dont like to imagine and speculate on the endless possibilities. I want to know what really happened in the end. I need a resolution to something that I have seen.
I also dont like to watch shows with sad endings that have the ability to leave you all down and dreary after leaving the cinema hall. It is equivalent to receiving no resolution to the movie/show.
Why are humans made to meet and part ultimately? It seems like being brought into this world with emotions and feelings isnt very much a privileged gift after all. Attachment theory denotes the importance of emotional and physical attachment that a baby needs once he is born into this world. Yet the stark fact is that this very attachment is going to be the cause of one s own misery and sorrow thereafter when the inevitable comes.
Treasure the moment. If the moment promises to stay while I am treasuring it, I will embrace it wholeheartedly. Very often, my moments of happiness bring along some awareness that these moments wont last as changes along the way will only serve to disrupt it.
Put no brake to your search for new happiness to replace the old. I guess this is the only way to keep one moving on.
I also dont like to watch shows with sad endings that have the ability to leave you all down and dreary after leaving the cinema hall. It is equivalent to receiving no resolution to the movie/show.
Why are humans made to meet and part ultimately? It seems like being brought into this world with emotions and feelings isnt very much a privileged gift after all. Attachment theory denotes the importance of emotional and physical attachment that a baby needs once he is born into this world. Yet the stark fact is that this very attachment is going to be the cause of one s own misery and sorrow thereafter when the inevitable comes.
Treasure the moment. If the moment promises to stay while I am treasuring it, I will embrace it wholeheartedly. Very often, my moments of happiness bring along some awareness that these moments wont last as changes along the way will only serve to disrupt it.
Put no brake to your search for new happiness to replace the old. I guess this is the only way to keep one moving on.
Thursday, July 06, 2006
Temporary migration (not me la..)
Yiling is leaving on sat night for Australia to study for a year, as part of her scholarship course. Think a couple of us will be sending her off at the airport on sat nite around 9. If any of you can make it, pls do come along to give her a farewell wish.
Shiying was saying to go Australia tog this year end to visit both yiling and san together! Woah...sounds exciting but guess few can confirm at such an early stage when current things are still pretty much uncertain, esp for those who have graduated. I dunno too so we shall see den. Fingers crossed.
Hmm…I think my group is going to miss her presence for our favourite routine game of Bridge played everytime during our mini gathering. Esp for stella, she is gonna dream of the scoldings given by yiling to her each time she failed to accumulate enough sets of cards for yiling if she were to be her partner. And for us her big staring eyes and high pitch voice each time we 'eat' her BIG cards during the game. Oopps...hahazz…I beta not say more incase she scold me in my blog. ;p
(anyway shupei, really must thank u for patiently teaching us this game some years ago at chalet which now have allowed us 2/4 ppl to play with each other anytime we meet at anywhere...so addictive leh)
Yiling, Bon Voyage! Anything just go bother San lar. Ask her cook breakfast, lunch and dinner for you lor, so easy. Don't put her culinary skills to waste mah rite, san? ;p
Hope you can come back during next New Year time and we can den play Bridge again! Hahaz...
Keep in touch and take good care over there.
Shiying was saying to go Australia tog this year end to visit both yiling and san together! Woah...sounds exciting but guess few can confirm at such an early stage when current things are still pretty much uncertain, esp for those who have graduated. I dunno too so we shall see den. Fingers crossed.
Hmm…I think my group is going to miss her presence for our favourite routine game of Bridge played everytime during our mini gathering. Esp for stella, she is gonna dream of the scoldings given by yiling to her each time she failed to accumulate enough sets of cards for yiling if she were to be her partner. And for us her big staring eyes and high pitch voice each time we 'eat' her BIG cards during the game. Oopps...hahazz…I beta not say more incase she scold me in my blog. ;p
(anyway shupei, really must thank u for patiently teaching us this game some years ago at chalet which now have allowed us 2/4 ppl to play with each other anytime we meet at anywhere...so addictive leh)
Yiling, Bon Voyage! Anything just go bother San lar. Ask her cook breakfast, lunch and dinner for you lor, so easy. Don't put her culinary skills to waste mah rite, san? ;p
Hope you can come back during next New Year time and we can den play Bridge again! Hahaz...
Keep in touch and take good care over there.
Thursday, June 29, 2006
Closure....coming to an end.
The next morning, we proceed to Ekkamai bus terminal (eastern) by sky train to take bus to Pattaya. Yes we are greedy to squeeze this into our alr tight itinerary.
Bangkok doesnt have a beach and we don't wish to shop whole day so there we go.
Yappy was selfish not to let me carry my backpack as he say I look ugly carrying that so insisted to carry for me for some parts of the journey. Here he is with my backpack and his sling bag:
Very selfish rite....dun let me carry. Make me feel like a useless vase. lalalalaa.....
When we reach the Ekkamai bus terminal, a bus officer was hurrying us to get up a bus which is said to be on its way to Pattaya. We asked about the ticket price (100 baht) which is the same as what we have researched so we thought it was the correct one and even thot that we are lucky to catch this scheduled bus so easily without much delay.
This is the ultra long bus ticket which we have paid for on the bus.
But somehow we feel weird cos it was too sudden and the bus consists of only a few of us. From what I researched, it is supposed to be buying ticket with seat number from a counter instead of just getting up the bus and paying for the tix in this manner. Weird, but we shall see.
This bus ended up stopping at many bus stops to pick up passengers. After like 2 hrs which is supposed to be the average duration of time to reach Pattaya from BKK, we are still in the bus, wondering whether we have reached Pattaya area or not. It ended up to be a 4 hrs bus journey to reach an out of nowhere roadside in Central Pattaya instead of a proper bus terminal in North Pattaya !
Arrgghh, wat a waste of time cos our hotel that we have booked is in North Pattaya. We felt cheated and bewildered with this bus that we have taken and sighed in dismay. Why are we landed here instead of the bus terminal? Whatever it is, time is running out! We only have one day in Pattaya! Hurry!
We took songthew ( truck taxi) at 150 baht to our hotel despite some bargain cos the driver say our destination is glai mark mark ( very far) from our location bcos of the 1-way streets and since there is only the 2 of us. No choice la. No energy to bargain or ask another driver le after that irritatingly long bus journey also.
We reach Sunshine vista serviced apartment finally at 4pm. A nice lobby. Our so far most decent and plesant looking hotel, with buffet breakfast too. S$47 per night for twin room.
Without much delay cos it was alr 4+ pm then, we hurried to the beach within 10 min walking distance. The most distinct characteristic is the long stretch of chairs laid out along the beach. Sea was not fantastically beautiful bcos of some pollution. Expected from hearsay.
We were then apporached by a guy who is renting jetski. After again much bargaining, we get the rate of 600 baht (S$24) for half an hr. Abit ex to us but still considered affordable as compared to some other countries I have heard.
Was really a ride that can make anyone feel high after that! It was my second time playing jetski but the feeling is still as fresh as the first! Half an hour pass very fast without us really taking note of it.
Nothing else much that we did after that as banana boat needs a number of ppl to play and parasailing wasn't in sight. The beach chairs need to rent and we thought its pointless so decided to go wash up at our hotel and walk around our seemingly lively area.
We had our most wonderful and sumptuos dinner at Fuji Restaurant in the Big Festival mall somewhere across the street. Realized that we hadn't eat anything since our breakfast bcos of that stupid long bus journey. Was excited to bump into this beautiful restaurant which is the one what we saw but dint have time to eat in BKK then.
With each of us paying way less than $20, we ordered ourselves each a set meal plus a shared sushi set plus cold sake and maccha milk drink. So very worth it that I think I had a little too much that inevitably cause me some indigestion problem thereafter. oopss.
The streets were lively that day cos there was some sort of carnival or fair that was going on. Some tour promotion and food fair and performance filled up the long stretch of street which we only managed to walked part of it.
As expected, many sleezy clubs with ladies scantily dressed waiting outside to lure customers in. Transverstites are not uncommon just like in Bangkok.
There are actually more things to do and see in Pattaya like transverstite show and a magnificent garden to visit etc.
The next morning, we wrapped up our last day with a good oil massage and prepare ourselves to say goodbye to Pattaya.
Proceed to the proper bus terminal, queue up to buy ticket(~123 baht) at counter and waited for our bus back to Mochit station in Bangkok (instead of Ekkamai where we board the bus to here bcos Mochit is nearer to airport).
If you are with a few more frens, it would be a much better and comfortable idea to share a taxi straight to Bangkok airport at 800 baht.
I believe this should be the proper bus ticket and procedure to follow unlike the encounter we had in BKK.
This is it!
The bus that we are scheduled to take is at 1 pm and neva expect that all the buses are delayed and the bus that came at 1 pm was for the 1210 pm batch. Our ticket was rejected by the bus officer so we retreat back to our seats. The counter ppl are not helpful to answer our queries about which bus we should take. We could only wait in vain and look at the board signal for 13:00 to show up.
In a state of confusion, a bus came some time later at 1.30 pm and with the board signal still stating 1240, we thought it wasnt our bus. I notice the Black who queued up before us during the purchase of ticket looking blur as well. Yappy then went to ask another staff with our ticket and she nodded that is the bus for us.
In a hurry, we quickly showed our ticket and it was accepted and we board the bus with our luggage deposted in the lower cabin and were wondering whether the Black know that this bus is what he should be taking as well. Yappy then decided to go down the bus to find the Black who was sitting comfortably in the waiting area. I saw from afar that the Black wasn't convinced that the bus yappy pointed is ours since the board still stating 1240. He asked Yappy to show it to him that he can get up the bus successfully. So yappy boarded the bus for him to see. The Black then hurriedly came along and board it too and thank him gratefully with his Black American slang. Haha...
So now you know the bus system there can't really be trusted... cant imagine if we miss this bus then our bus ticket will be wasted as there is specific seat number one. And we still have a flight to take from bangkok later!
The bus journey from Pattaya bus terminal to Mochit station without any stops was around 2 and a half hours. Decent. This is what it should be manz.
Yes we know its coming to an end but I don't find how time flies so swiftly mayb cos I was treasuring every moment of it. Not sure abt him but nevertheless, still feeling abit hard to part from this vacation trip.
Byebye Bangkok....
A finale photo taken at the airport. Nice.
PS: Hope you guys enjoyed reading our 'itinerary' as much as I was writing about it!
Bangkok doesnt have a beach and we don't wish to shop whole day so there we go.
Yappy was selfish not to let me carry my backpack as he say I look ugly carrying that so insisted to carry for me for some parts of the journey. Here he is with my backpack and his sling bag:
Very selfish rite....dun let me carry. Make me feel like a useless vase. lalalalaa.....
When we reach the Ekkamai bus terminal, a bus officer was hurrying us to get up a bus which is said to be on its way to Pattaya. We asked about the ticket price (100 baht) which is the same as what we have researched so we thought it was the correct one and even thot that we are lucky to catch this scheduled bus so easily without much delay.
This is the ultra long bus ticket which we have paid for on the bus.
But somehow we feel weird cos it was too sudden and the bus consists of only a few of us. From what I researched, it is supposed to be buying ticket with seat number from a counter instead of just getting up the bus and paying for the tix in this manner. Weird, but we shall see.
This bus ended up stopping at many bus stops to pick up passengers. After like 2 hrs which is supposed to be the average duration of time to reach Pattaya from BKK, we are still in the bus, wondering whether we have reached Pattaya area or not. It ended up to be a 4 hrs bus journey to reach an out of nowhere roadside in Central Pattaya instead of a proper bus terminal in North Pattaya !
Arrgghh, wat a waste of time cos our hotel that we have booked is in North Pattaya. We felt cheated and bewildered with this bus that we have taken and sighed in dismay. Why are we landed here instead of the bus terminal? Whatever it is, time is running out! We only have one day in Pattaya! Hurry!
We took songthew ( truck taxi) at 150 baht to our hotel despite some bargain cos the driver say our destination is glai mark mark ( very far) from our location bcos of the 1-way streets and since there is only the 2 of us. No choice la. No energy to bargain or ask another driver le after that irritatingly long bus journey also.
We reach Sunshine vista serviced apartment finally at 4pm. A nice lobby. Our so far most decent and plesant looking hotel, with buffet breakfast too. S$47 per night for twin room.
Without much delay cos it was alr 4+ pm then, we hurried to the beach within 10 min walking distance. The most distinct characteristic is the long stretch of chairs laid out along the beach. Sea was not fantastically beautiful bcos of some pollution. Expected from hearsay.
We were then apporached by a guy who is renting jetski. After again much bargaining, we get the rate of 600 baht (S$24) for half an hr. Abit ex to us but still considered affordable as compared to some other countries I have heard.
Was really a ride that can make anyone feel high after that! It was my second time playing jetski but the feeling is still as fresh as the first! Half an hour pass very fast without us really taking note of it.
Nothing else much that we did after that as banana boat needs a number of ppl to play and parasailing wasn't in sight. The beach chairs need to rent and we thought its pointless so decided to go wash up at our hotel and walk around our seemingly lively area.
We had our most wonderful and sumptuos dinner at Fuji Restaurant in the Big Festival mall somewhere across the street. Realized that we hadn't eat anything since our breakfast bcos of that stupid long bus journey. Was excited to bump into this beautiful restaurant which is the one what we saw but dint have time to eat in BKK then.
With each of us paying way less than $20, we ordered ourselves each a set meal plus a shared sushi set plus cold sake and maccha milk drink. So very worth it that I think I had a little too much that inevitably cause me some indigestion problem thereafter. oopss.
The streets were lively that day cos there was some sort of carnival or fair that was going on. Some tour promotion and food fair and performance filled up the long stretch of street which we only managed to walked part of it.
As expected, many sleezy clubs with ladies scantily dressed waiting outside to lure customers in. Transverstites are not uncommon just like in Bangkok.
There are actually more things to do and see in Pattaya like transverstite show and a magnificent garden to visit etc.
The next morning, we wrapped up our last day with a good oil massage and prepare ourselves to say goodbye to Pattaya.
Proceed to the proper bus terminal, queue up to buy ticket(~123 baht) at counter and waited for our bus back to Mochit station in Bangkok (instead of Ekkamai where we board the bus to here bcos Mochit is nearer to airport).
If you are with a few more frens, it would be a much better and comfortable idea to share a taxi straight to Bangkok airport at 800 baht.
I believe this should be the proper bus ticket and procedure to follow unlike the encounter we had in BKK.
This is it!
The bus that we are scheduled to take is at 1 pm and neva expect that all the buses are delayed and the bus that came at 1 pm was for the 1210 pm batch. Our ticket was rejected by the bus officer so we retreat back to our seats. The counter ppl are not helpful to answer our queries about which bus we should take. We could only wait in vain and look at the board signal for 13:00 to show up.
In a state of confusion, a bus came some time later at 1.30 pm and with the board signal still stating 1240, we thought it wasnt our bus. I notice the Black who queued up before us during the purchase of ticket looking blur as well. Yappy then went to ask another staff with our ticket and she nodded that is the bus for us.
In a hurry, we quickly showed our ticket and it was accepted and we board the bus with our luggage deposted in the lower cabin and were wondering whether the Black know that this bus is what he should be taking as well. Yappy then decided to go down the bus to find the Black who was sitting comfortably in the waiting area. I saw from afar that the Black wasn't convinced that the bus yappy pointed is ours since the board still stating 1240. He asked Yappy to show it to him that he can get up the bus successfully. So yappy boarded the bus for him to see. The Black then hurriedly came along and board it too and thank him gratefully with his Black American slang. Haha...
So now you know the bus system there can't really be trusted... cant imagine if we miss this bus then our bus ticket will be wasted as there is specific seat number one. And we still have a flight to take from bangkok later!
The bus journey from Pattaya bus terminal to Mochit station without any stops was around 2 and a half hours. Decent. This is what it should be manz.
Yes we know its coming to an end but I don't find how time flies so swiftly mayb cos I was treasuring every moment of it. Not sure abt him but nevertheless, still feeling abit hard to part from this vacation trip.
Byebye Bangkok....
A finale photo taken at the airport. Nice.
PS: Hope you guys enjoyed reading our 'itinerary' as much as I was writing about it!
Saturday, June 24, 2006
Bangkok last day...
Our last day in Bangkok before we set off to Pattaya:
Yappy finds it disgusting to shop all day in Bangkok, thus our itinerary consists of some outdoor activities too which includes today.
We went to the somehow less talked about 'tourist' attraction more recommended for family who are bringing kids. Siam Park City (instead of Dreamworld)! Its only $8 admission fee for unlimited rides to the land and water park. CHeap cheaapp....
Our naive minds assume that siam park city is in siam area but it wasnt! The receptionist at our hotel told us that its quite far and out of the way and you need around 1 hr taxi drive to reach there from where we are now. Abit shaken, we took some time to discuss whether we should proceed to our original plan. And yes we are!
And we are glad that we did!
I am holding on to a thai phrase book borrowed from library which has proven itself to be useful in our bargaining and queries with a taxi driver who does not speak any Eng. But dun worrie, most of the time simple english and sign language can just survive you tru your shopping.
The pics above may misleadingly give you the impression that the Siam Park City is somewhat grand and big but actually the whole amusement park is pretty small with only a few rides but enough to leave us feeling satisfied and energy drained out at the end of the trip.
The worst ride of all! We call it the topsy turvy ride that should be condemned by all sane ppl on Earth !
This ride is disgusting leh! For the seemingly long ride, you and your partner will be tossing and rolling together with the round containers that you are in at 360 degrees, with just a tight belt strap across your waist. Imagine that!
Both of us felt like vomiting right at each other's face after that... no joke.
Our tired looks after all the land rides. Can't wait to move on to the water park for a splashing good time...
The water park is like a mini fantasy island(though I have not been to). My sort of first time playing all these since I have not been to wild wild wet or the swimming complex in Jurong centre. It was great fun sliding down the long tunnels and Big Splash slides! My upper swimming suit nearly go out of place....Phew!
Not many pictures taken in the water park since all things are kept in locker you see. Typical stuff like the wave pool, jacuzzi, big splash and tunnel slides.
Compared to WWW in downtown east Singapore where I've been to recently, I very much appreciate the less disciplined system here in Siam Park City. Don't need to queue up to play the slides or being restricted to one person at a time. Anytime, anyone can just go along with frens at whatever positions you want and whoosh down the tunnel slides. Never mind about the body collisions that sometime occur at mid-way down the slides. It's all in the name of fun!
We continued our shopping in MBK to finish our shopping from previous day. Btw MBK is nearest to National Stadium skytrain station though still walkable from Siam station. Infact, we think all the skytrain stations are pretty near to each other! An alternative is just to take tuk tuk from one station to the next, stop you straight at the door which may be more worthwhile & convenient for you.
Yappy looks kinda Thai with his dark skin and Singha top.
This is a modest collection of what we have bought from this trip since we are on budget and under limited luggage space and time to shop proper.
Saw those 3 pairs of shoes that I've bought in total? 2 heels and a sandal.
We were like hungry ghosts when we reached the shopping centre and we can't help spending time to reward our stomach in between our shopping time.
Most of the food courts In BKK make use of coupons or top-up card for the purchase of food. Get it at the counter then go buy your food. Refund of your leftover value is mostly possible.
Thai fried kway teow-Pad Thai is addictively nice. Sour and sweet. Available also at the big S-11 in amk central, next to Jubilee, which taste equally good I thought.
Superlicious dessert ice cream at swensens!
Yappy was whining for Xiao Long Bao for the whole nite. We then managed to find a chinese restaurant that sell. Poor me has to oblige to eat with him! How sacrificing is that....!! ;p
(yum yum..hee)
Yappy's method of saving time by cooling the noodles while tasting the soup simultaneously.
Here comes the Xiao Long Bao and the pancake... which becomes a difficult decision-making time for Yappy to choose between this or the other.
Stuff them both in your mouth lor!
My first rose from Yappy whom he bought from a small ger in the streets along our way back to hotel that night. Haaahee..
"The following day will be to Pattaya Beach...will it be a smooth-sailing ride?", we wondered in our dreams....
Yappy finds it disgusting to shop all day in Bangkok, thus our itinerary consists of some outdoor activities too which includes today.
We went to the somehow less talked about 'tourist' attraction more recommended for family who are bringing kids. Siam Park City (instead of Dreamworld)! Its only $8 admission fee for unlimited rides to the land and water park. CHeap cheaapp....
Our naive minds assume that siam park city is in siam area but it wasnt! The receptionist at our hotel told us that its quite far and out of the way and you need around 1 hr taxi drive to reach there from where we are now. Abit shaken, we took some time to discuss whether we should proceed to our original plan. And yes we are!
And we are glad that we did!
I am holding on to a thai phrase book borrowed from library which has proven itself to be useful in our bargaining and queries with a taxi driver who does not speak any Eng. But dun worrie, most of the time simple english and sign language can just survive you tru your shopping.
The pics above may misleadingly give you the impression that the Siam Park City is somewhat grand and big but actually the whole amusement park is pretty small with only a few rides but enough to leave us feeling satisfied and energy drained out at the end of the trip.
The worst ride of all! We call it the topsy turvy ride that should be condemned by all sane ppl on Earth !
This ride is disgusting leh! For the seemingly long ride, you and your partner will be tossing and rolling together with the round containers that you are in at 360 degrees, with just a tight belt strap across your waist. Imagine that!
Both of us felt like vomiting right at each other's face after that... no joke.
Our tired looks after all the land rides. Can't wait to move on to the water park for a splashing good time...
The water park is like a mini fantasy island(though I have not been to). My sort of first time playing all these since I have not been to wild wild wet or the swimming complex in Jurong centre. It was great fun sliding down the long tunnels and Big Splash slides! My upper swimming suit nearly go out of place....Phew!
Not many pictures taken in the water park since all things are kept in locker you see. Typical stuff like the wave pool, jacuzzi, big splash and tunnel slides.
Compared to WWW in downtown east Singapore where I've been to recently, I very much appreciate the less disciplined system here in Siam Park City. Don't need to queue up to play the slides or being restricted to one person at a time. Anytime, anyone can just go along with frens at whatever positions you want and whoosh down the tunnel slides. Never mind about the body collisions that sometime occur at mid-way down the slides. It's all in the name of fun!
We continued our shopping in MBK to finish our shopping from previous day. Btw MBK is nearest to National Stadium skytrain station though still walkable from Siam station. Infact, we think all the skytrain stations are pretty near to each other! An alternative is just to take tuk tuk from one station to the next, stop you straight at the door which may be more worthwhile & convenient for you.
Yappy looks kinda Thai with his dark skin and Singha top.
This is a modest collection of what we have bought from this trip since we are on budget and under limited luggage space and time to shop proper.
Saw those 3 pairs of shoes that I've bought in total? 2 heels and a sandal.
We were like hungry ghosts when we reached the shopping centre and we can't help spending time to reward our stomach in between our shopping time.
Most of the food courts In BKK make use of coupons or top-up card for the purchase of food. Get it at the counter then go buy your food. Refund of your leftover value is mostly possible.
Thai fried kway teow-Pad Thai is addictively nice. Sour and sweet. Available also at the big S-11 in amk central, next to Jubilee, which taste equally good I thought.
Superlicious dessert ice cream at swensens!
Yappy was whining for Xiao Long Bao for the whole nite. We then managed to find a chinese restaurant that sell. Poor me has to oblige to eat with him! How sacrificing is that....!! ;p
(yum yum..hee)
Yappy's method of saving time by cooling the noodles while tasting the soup simultaneously.
Here comes the Xiao Long Bao and the pancake... which becomes a difficult decision-making time for Yappy to choose between this or the other.
Stuff them both in your mouth lor!
My first rose from Yappy whom he bought from a small ger in the streets along our way back to hotel that night. Haaahee..
"The following day will be to Pattaya Beach...will it be a smooth-sailing ride?", we wondered in our dreams....
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