Contradictory

To be paid well isnt really my main concern for my first few years of work, given my choice to work in the social services sector where I should already be expected to get a not-that-fantastic pay plus having to work in the weekends if I am working in voluntary welfare organizations.

However I do not wish to be exploited of my time and labour that is not compatible with my pay. For god's sake, dont tell me about passion and the desire to help the needys that one should be all willing to give more than one should. My time doesn't belong to public's use. Charity starts from home. The least that I can do is to first provide available resources to help myself and my family to be self-sufficient and not needed to be dependent on the govt or the social services for financial assistance thereafter. Plus there is always this order of charity. Like my mum always say, if every person in the society can learn just to take care of themselves first, societal problems would be so greatly reduced.

Dun be mistaken. i ve not started work yet. Just wanna be psychologically equipped for whatever it takes to be in my desired kind of work if I were to be recruited.

I am really no fussy inflexible person who cant take hard chores. I merely appreciate BALANCE in life which I dun see as too much to ask for.

ps: oh man i am so bored in my temp office, just told to extend my stay here when I feel like asking back, ' y on earth do you wan to employ me for sitting down at the desk, surfing net and writing blog? Are you doing me charity?'

Don't die pls...

My pc is suffering from fever and now cancer. Not long before, it was experiencing internet connection failure due to some human error committed by an internet service provider which I don't think I want to elaborate here incase I get sued for defamatory acts or something.

After sending it to a computer clinic, it has been diagnosed that the fan in the system unit is spoilt, causing the capacitors in the motherboard to leak some metallic liquids, plus potentially the CPU to get burnt also. Darn...what luck.

So to get it repaired, the estimated cost can amount to $500+ if I going to add RAM, get a new motherboard, a fan plus CPU to replace those 'cancerous' parts.

Oh god...Poor PC!!! A major surgery has got to be done to revive you back to life! I wish I had bought you a medical insurance. Arrgghh....

Luckily I do not need to bid for modules now since I have alr graduated if not I will definitely be cursinig and swearing on my bad luck to have my pc in such terrible state during such crucial times.

To comfort me further would be at least that I have my sis' laptop and my office's pc to tide me down for any online thingy that I need at the moment. So still not bad larh...haiz...

But what shitty chance I am landing myself in now that all those computer jargons and knowledge that I have picked up in an introductory module from computing last sem is gonna put to good practical use now that I have to find out more about the prices and different types of the parts that I am going to purchase from computer outlets during this period, (with the help of Yappy of cos).

My 'computer fluency' (as promised by the module's objective) is gonna come in handy now....aahh....

Special update

Hey peeps,

I have a new hotmail account! ( duh...as if this is anything great to announce)

Well it is for good reasons that it is being created.

You know hotmail accounts get flooded by unknown sources and spam mails over time and thus it's always good to start afresh every after some years.

Plus, there is even a better reason to change it after every 4 years which I have been doing since 1998.

From cernyfan in 1998 to casillas02 in 2002, this year I am going to change it to cannavar06 in 2006. ( the 0 is number zero)

For seemingly smart alecks out there, you might have guessed correctly that those names are adopted from the names of the footballers in the Worldcup. This is a tradition that I would like to continue in remembrance of each of the season that has kept me something to look forward to amidst mundane routines.

Why those particular footballers among so many others, you might ask? Well they are 'carefully' picked and scrutinized based on some of the unique qualities they possess, which a bulk of them point to their good looks which I am ashamed to admit. heh

Well of cos not wanting to appear as superficial as what stereotypes like to point to girls watching football, I obviously choose them also bcos of their...... nice unique names as well. :>

Ok I think I better stop elaborating on this before some female football fanatics start to bash me up on that.

Nonetheless it is always nice to end this with just a quick note on my new found pick of this Fifa worldcup season- Fabio Cannavaro of the Azzurri team (Italy):

Known to be one of the best central defenders around and also the captain of the team, he is a good reader of the game and has proven himself to be an aggressive and fast player on field.

Despite his height vertically challenged as compared to other players, he exudes confidence when he runs and is widely recognized for his defensive techniques that seldom having to lead to foul.

Here he is:



PS: Do applaud me for my ability to extract time from my office hours to update my blog. I am certainly good at multi-tasking! ( or am i just too free?)

Do try to email me at this newest email address in the future pls! Thanks!



(Happy Birthday Shuwei!!!)

The best candid photo

This photo is classic I must show it man. It looks like an impending disaster is inevitable for all in the KTV room except one who looks like she has it all planned out, given her witchy grin.




For a moment I wondered what happened during that time when this photo was taken. Issit that Kenny dropped the wall phone or something? If so, its really a shame for us to produce such exaggerated expression man...but no leh I rem he was the one taking the photo for us wat.

And yea like I said, Phil and JY look kinda alike with the same shape of that tilted mouth and big eyes, dun u think?

The inevitable...

To me, its very important for a movie/show to have some sort of a proper ending rather than a tail for you to run your imagination wild. I dont like to imagine and speculate on the endless possibilities. I want to know what really happened in the end. I need a resolution to something that I have seen.

I also dont like to watch shows with sad endings that have the ability to leave you all down and dreary after leaving the cinema hall. It is equivalent to receiving no resolution to the movie/show.



Why are humans made to meet and part ultimately? It seems like being brought into this world with emotions and feelings isnt very much a privileged gift after all. Attachment theory denotes the importance of emotional and physical attachment that a baby needs once he is born into this world. Yet the stark fact is that this very attachment is going to be the cause of one s own misery and sorrow thereafter when the inevitable comes.


Treasure the moment. If the moment promises to stay while I am treasuring it, I will embrace it wholeheartedly. Very often, my moments of happiness bring along some awareness that these moments wont last as changes along the way will only serve to disrupt it.


Put no brake to your search for new happiness to replace the old. I guess this is the only way to keep one moving on.

Temporary migration (not me la..)

Yiling is leaving on sat night for Australia to study for a year, as part of her scholarship course. Think a couple of us will be sending her off at the airport on sat nite around 9. If any of you can make it, pls do come along to give her a farewell wish.

Shiying was saying to go Australia tog this year end to visit both yiling and san together! Woah...sounds exciting but guess few can confirm at such an early stage when current things are still pretty much uncertain, esp for those who have graduated. I dunno too so we shall see den. Fingers crossed.

Hmm…I think my group is going to miss her presence for our favourite routine game of Bridge played everytime during our mini gathering. Esp for stella, she is gonna dream of the scoldings given by yiling to her each time she failed to accumulate enough sets of cards for yiling if she were to be her partner. And for us her big staring eyes and high pitch voice each time we 'eat' her BIG cards during the game. Oopps...hahazz…I beta not say more incase she scold me in my blog. ;p

(anyway shupei, really must thank u for patiently teaching us this game some years ago at chalet which now have allowed us 2/4 ppl to play with each other anytime we meet at anywhere...so addictive leh)

Yiling, Bon Voyage! Anything just go bother San lar. Ask her cook breakfast, lunch and dinner for you lor, so easy. Don't put her culinary skills to waste mah rite, san? ;p

Hope you can come back during next New Year time and we can den play Bridge again! Hahaz...

Keep in touch and take good care over there.