Accountability!!

I am so stressed, even more so after encountering difficult ppl today!!!
AAAHHHHHHHHHHH! Just let me scream!!!

The most untolerable aspect of this job is clients who dont want to help themselves but waiting for us to do things for them!!
Sometimes their attitude really explain why they keep getting themselves trapped in their poverty cycle, not that I want to say.

There is so much I want to do for some of the genuine cases, yet so little that I can offer, given the amt of cases that I am handling.

Today I almost go to the extent of taking out my own money to give to one client bcos she refused to leave!! Keep whining and crying and attempting to suicide.

I am drained out today, my mind was tight and heavy at the end of it.

I am even going back to office out of my own accord this sat to meet my clients and to clear some backlogs. Poor me.

Office romance not allowed

It's funny that he has been sending me sms everday since the break of camp even though we are working in the same office. At first I thought that he just wants to be nice and and friendly to me being a new staff in the office. Not to mention that he pops by every corner of the office to make small talks with every other ppl which include me. Nothing surprising. I thought he is just being friendly.

Camp mates ever ask me what I think of him during camp. I said very nice guy and full stop. This is purely the impression I get. Nothing more to say. Infact, he has many other good qualities in his personality which I cannot deny. But that doesnt mean I should like him just bcos he is good. There is no formula for such.

It is until he drop me a sms to say a piece of his mind which scares me abit to know. A short, simple and direct statement that appears to state it all. I was taken aback that I rather he not say it and I not know it. But I was able to see him and talk to him as usual the very next day mayb bcos we both were able to act as though nothing has happened and most imptly, I dun feel anything special twds him except as a potentially good fren in the future.

Realize

I can undstd why time will pass faster once one starts working bcos every week we awaits for the weekend to come. With anticipation of the weekend plus the busyness of work, it is inevitable that the weekdays pass as fast as we wish it to be. Thus it is to no amazement that we can grow older faster than we realize.

Time and money to me feels like a pie chart now. I have to ration and divide proportionately among my old friends, new friends, colleagues, work, leisure and exercise. Less time for myself. It's indeed a big challenge to embrace the new and to maintain the old. Now that I am working and receiving a monthly income, I feel so glad that I can finally and officially make financial contribution to my family le! I always hope that my entry to work can help to lessen my dad's burden. It's funny to hear from my dad's comment that I am the new ATM machine at home now! haha.

When old staff teaches new staff something, its hard for for the former to imagine what the latter dunno bcos they have forgotten what its like to be new when they are already so familiar with it. This applies to teachers in school as well. A teacher is good if he is able to teach in an unassuming way such that he can explain what he can understand from the student's perspective.

When entering a new setting, it is important to smile wherever you go. Talk even when its NOT necessary. If thats not your nature, make an effort to do so. Set reminders if you need to. ;p