Monday was a bad start of the week for me at work.
An administrative error (not within my full control) has to occur on the most difficult-to-handle client of mine. It was the 'swayest' thing that has to happen. The 'near to mentally unsound' client walk in, made a huge fuss of the error, demanded what he wants, insisted who he wants to see and argued on what should be given to him. My team leader kindly sits in the session with me to act upon his weighty presence and we begin an arduous 1 and 1/2 hr negotiating session with the client, with 90% of the time having to bear his senseless arguments and his saliva sprouting at a certain projectile on the table where I was conscientiously trying to avoid as best as I could. I pity my team leader and really thank him for his company to brave through the session with me. He even bought some custard puff for me because he know that we both have forsaken our lunch time because of the client.
During the session, I experience an intense headache which refuse to go away only after a few hrs later. Oh god, I seldom have headache and yesterday was really the time when I know how a headache literally feels like...And worse of all, my lip inflammation has a sudden outbreak yesterday and it has caused double misery to me...
Today was not spared. The same client walks in to haunt me. Not really me but my covering colleague. He demanded something from my colleague who has helped me to handle him last friday when I was on course. So he came back to bother my colleague whom he accused to have lost a document of his. Due to one reason or another, I was advised not to re-produce the something that he has lost. After a tedious tussle with him, my team leader and myself have to give in to his nonsense by producing the something that he wants only after doing some amendment to it. He then leaves the office grudgingly but still demanding that the something wasn't the one that he has lost.
I hate this feeling similar to having to give in to a school bully just so to stop him from stirring up further trouble. Is there fairness like this? Clients who can argue their way through get what they want cos we are obliged to give in. This is so not fair to other clients who tried their means to be self-reliant and work hard on their own.
Haizz......I can anticipate the client coming in to my office again for a new trouble which I have thought of what he can come up with. I felt bad that this client of mine has to get my team leader and my covering colleague to be involved in the end. I shall write them a mini card to express my gratitude and apology after this issue resolves... but I wonder how will this issue be resolved when he is so difficult to handle....
My lip inflammation never gets better and I went to see doctor tonight for consultation. In the end it incur me extra cost because of a doctor memo that he has written for me to show it to the skin specialist whom I am advised to visit on my own. LAME. If I had know the doc memo cost an extra $5, I might as well don't want him to write!! IDIOTIC DOCTOR. He looks like he has just graduated from his medical course and just smoking his way thru. SHITTY.
On another note, feels glad to know that my mum will be back at home tomorrow yet again. Having someone at home to await for my returning from work is something that I cannot take for granted as my family members are not at home everyday. I remember my mum once told me that once I started work, she will come back from msia together with my dad at the end of the week unlike previously. I have mixed feelings upon hearing that. I dunno to feel happy or sad. But till date, she has not acted upon that. I think she wants to accompany me at home. I guess I prefer it this way although I know my dad in msia needs her company as well. I can't imagine my life without my mum. She is my best confidante who never fails to understand my point of view and loves listening to me as much as sharing her ideas with me. I wish I can marry my mum.
I always felt misunderstood whenever friends assume that I like to be independent and is aloof or hostile. I know I am not like that. I believe I am just trying and hoping to be cos I always feel insecure with the ppl around me so much that I don't dare to rely on anyone. I scared that my friends might leave me one day for other new friends that they have known along their way... my love life which I have taken great courage to embark on has been an unexpected failure ....my family i know will not leave me but I am scared of misfortune to happen..... under such circumstances I know I have only myself to depend on yet I feel so inadequate....I wish to rely on others cos I am too heavy to rely on myself.....
Sorry for being so melodrama......thats just me once awhile.....which is the feeling I hate most....
