As some of you might know, I have decided to leave my job after in it for abt 1 yr & 8 mths.
YYEEAA!!!! Today marks the last official day! I am jubilant!
To explain why I quiited my job, I can write a 1000 words essay.......
[Parts deleted to secure confidentiality]
Surprisingly, my boss and colleagues think of me as very different from what I think of myself.
Some of think think that I am a very patient person which is to my advantage as they assume that clients will not bear to scold or shout at me and will instead listen and comply with me.
WRONG: I am actually quite an impatient and bad tempered person. I think my mother and one of you will totally agree with me. I have little patience with difficult clients who are rude, demanding and unreasonable. Ok. I agree that I probably don't show it very much on my face cos I avoid conflicts as best as I could but I am really fuming inside me. Thats why i say i am not patient or good tempered. A genuinely good tempered and patient person wont feel angry at all. But I do. And I get really sulky and grumpy after that.
Because I am impatient, I am also someone with a high sense of urgency and high level of neuroticism. I admit that alot of times I give myself unnecessary stress to want to meet certain deadlines to finish the cases so that my clients can get the money on time and not come and scold or harass me. I stay back almost every night to do my cases. Ppl think that I stay back bcos I am stressed. WRONG. The fact that I can stay back make me less stress and it reduces my stress so that I have extra time to do my work and I wont be so stress on the next working day. Some colleagues with the same working style as me will know what I mean by this logic. I even bring cases home to do. I am paranoid to a certain extent. If uncontrolled, I can be someone with no work-life balance as I am very task-oriented.
Am I suitable for this job? I really dunno. It works for and against me I feel.
Nonetheless, there are also reasons which I feel that I am suited for this job which I shant elaborate here orelse it will get lengthy.
I do have an exit plan after my resignation which is just one of my alternatives. Shall take things one at a time.
To date, the pillar of support during my course of work is truly my mother. She shared alot of my burdens from work just by giving me a listening ear and offering me a different perspective. If not for her, I think I can go insane. My mum totally understands the frustration that I am going tru whenever I tell her certain things. Sometimes she will even tell me that, "I really dun want to be in ur job." But of cos I think I have told her too many sad and poor stories that she is growing to get tired of hearing them. HA. She must be happy that I quitted lar. oh well.
My mother once told me that my stories at work are very sad and poor to the extent that its boring and uninteresting to hear, unlike criminal stories which are more unusual and juicy. She cautioned that if I have a husband, I shld refrain from pouring out to him as he probably wouldnt like to listen to them every single day. But isnt it true that husband and wife should share their woes?
I once read a meaningful article that reads:
"In life, there are more sorrows than happiness. There are too many people whom you can share your happiness with, not necessary your lover. If you live your life happily, you can also enjoy it alone. Sadness, however not many people is willing to share burden with you. If you are willing to tell him/her your unhappiness, she/he got to be someone who is closest and most understanding to you.
How to decide if you love 2 persons at the same time? When you are sad, which gal/guy you want to share your burden with? Whoever that comes to mind first is the one you love more. If you think of the same guy/gal when you are happy and sad, thats the most perfect. If not, choose the one you are willing to share your sadness with."
If you are sad, who comes to your mind first? Answer yourself honestly....
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Friday, May 30, 2008
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Our heartfelt condolences to survivors and victims of Sze Chuan Earthquake disaster
Our hearts bleed each time those tragic moments are flashed on screen
The immense amt of pain and misery
It's probably hard for us to imagine
Yet we feel it together with you
We really do.
Apart from admiring the efforts of the rescue workers
Giving a little from what we have in our pockets
Expressing deep felt sympathy and grief
There is just so much we can do
So little we can help.
Those dreams and desires that you once speak so loud
Those familiar things that that you used to see and felt
What's left seem so empty and broken now.
Bear in mind that each member of the human race are all standing up
To give you our every bit of help
To walk you through and towards
A future that still holds for you.
You are not helpless
You will not be alone
Cos our hopes and aspirations for you are ALIVE.
* Also hope to extend my condolences to Myanmar Cyclone victims who unfortunately are not well receiving the aid that they should get due to the nature of its political climate which is depriving human rights which to me is totally inexplicable...
The immense amt of pain and misery
It's probably hard for us to imagine
Yet we feel it together with you
We really do.
Apart from admiring the efforts of the rescue workers
Giving a little from what we have in our pockets
Expressing deep felt sympathy and grief
There is just so much we can do
So little we can help.
Those dreams and desires that you once speak so loud
Those familiar things that that you used to see and felt
What's left seem so empty and broken now.
Bear in mind that each member of the human race are all standing up
To give you our every bit of help
To walk you through and towards
A future that still holds for you.
You are not helpless
You will not be alone
Cos our hopes and aspirations for you are ALIVE.
* Also hope to extend my condolences to Myanmar Cyclone victims who unfortunately are not well receiving the aid that they should get due to the nature of its political climate which is depriving human rights which to me is totally inexplicable...
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Once in awhile....
I like Double O on friday nite. Let's go Double O the next time, girls (jenny and gang). The music rocks. Pop and R&B. My favourite music to be able to dance like nobody's business. And it wasn't as crowded as those common places like St James. The only drawback is that it closes at 3am. Very early.
My clubbing mood is back. I guess I like the feeling of being tipsy and able to lose some of my own awareness yet staying sober. Perhaps, most of the time I think too much of how ppl judge me so when it comes to letting my hair down, I can reali do so at ease. It feels great.
Though it was the first time I go clubbing with this few of my colleagues (inclusive of 2 new staff and 1 from another dept), it was an enjoyable feeling despite the initial moments of uncertanties since afterall I have never gone clubbing with them b4. I am already looking fwd to our next proposed clubbing date. Too bad I am leaving them soon...dunno issit possible to keep in touch or not.
Trying to sleep....think I slept too much during these few days of clearing leave, thats why I am still awake now. HA.
My clubbing mood is back. I guess I like the feeling of being tipsy and able to lose some of my own awareness yet staying sober. Perhaps, most of the time I think too much of how ppl judge me so when it comes to letting my hair down, I can reali do so at ease. It feels great.
Though it was the first time I go clubbing with this few of my colleagues (inclusive of 2 new staff and 1 from another dept), it was an enjoyable feeling despite the initial moments of uncertanties since afterall I have never gone clubbing with them b4. I am already looking fwd to our next proposed clubbing date. Too bad I am leaving them soon...dunno issit possible to keep in touch or not.
Trying to sleep....think I slept too much during these few days of clearing leave, thats why I am still awake now. HA.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
The coldest day of my life - Chi gu de leng
When I said that I had a terribly cold day at Disneyland, I wasn't quite kidding. It was colder than in Mt Fuji!
Ironically, Disneyland was one of my most anticipated places of interest yet it turned out to be a disastrous cold and rainy place that I remembered it to be.
At first it was only drizzling. We thought the rain might be short-lived but its not Spore.
Initially, we were quite high with the rain and strong wind that blows onto our face. Well it was quite fun at first you see, with the wind so strong that it blew up our umbrella. We were like screaming away.
The indoor is the only comfort zone that can keep me warm and smiley.
From the wetness of my pants, you can imagine how drenched and uncomfortable I feel.
We then queued for an outdoor ride. When it was our turn to be on the ride, it has already started pouring heavily. Yes, heavily. Our sweater, hair and all are totally wet! AAAHHHH....the start of nightmare.
It was so damn uncomfortable and terribly cold esp when the strong wind keep blowing whenever we reach outdoors. I regretted not wearing thick enough clothing. Serve me right for wearing so thin clothing. Underestimated the coldness but curse the rain and wind.
Since after that first ride, Clara and myself were freezing for the rest of the day, Diana was reasonably warmed with her rather thick sheepy sweater that she bought. Thus, Clara and myself have termed the coldness as 'Chi gu de leng" -coldness that strike right into the bone and heart.
Unfortunately, the rain in TOKYO is long-lived.
Sorry, I dint manage to take much photos cos I was literally freezing beneath the wet sweater I was wearing. Totally lost the mood and strength to take photos.
We are left to take those seemingly kiddish indoor rides which has however brighten up our mood. The indoor rides bring you into beautiful dreamylands and fantasy worlds that totally rock the inner child in you. It was entertaining and beautiful!
Yet, after finishing each indoor ride, we are back to facing the harsh cold weather so as to get to other places. Back to freezing time. GRRRR.....
We thought we will most prob get sick the next day. But luckily, we dint as we were left to fend for ourselves for the extended 3 days all on our own.
Ironically, Disneyland was one of my most anticipated places of interest yet it turned out to be a disastrous cold and rainy place that I remembered it to be.
At first it was only drizzling. We thought the rain might be short-lived but its not Spore.
Initially, we were quite high with the rain and strong wind that blows onto our face. Well it was quite fun at first you see, with the wind so strong that it blew up our umbrella. We were like screaming away.
The indoor is the only comfort zone that can keep me warm and smiley.
From the wetness of my pants, you can imagine how drenched and uncomfortable I feel.
We then queued for an outdoor ride. When it was our turn to be on the ride, it has already started pouring heavily. Yes, heavily. Our sweater, hair and all are totally wet! AAAHHHH....the start of nightmare.
It was so damn uncomfortable and terribly cold esp when the strong wind keep blowing whenever we reach outdoors. I regretted not wearing thick enough clothing. Serve me right for wearing so thin clothing. Underestimated the coldness but curse the rain and wind.
Since after that first ride, Clara and myself were freezing for the rest of the day, Diana was reasonably warmed with her rather thick sheepy sweater that she bought. Thus, Clara and myself have termed the coldness as 'Chi gu de leng" -coldness that strike right into the bone and heart.
Unfortunately, the rain in TOKYO is long-lived.
Sorry, I dint manage to take much photos cos I was literally freezing beneath the wet sweater I was wearing. Totally lost the mood and strength to take photos.
We are left to take those seemingly kiddish indoor rides which has however brighten up our mood. The indoor rides bring you into beautiful dreamylands and fantasy worlds that totally rock the inner child in you. It was entertaining and beautiful!
Yet, after finishing each indoor ride, we are back to facing the harsh cold weather so as to get to other places. Back to freezing time. GRRRR.....
We thought we will most prob get sick the next day. But luckily, we dint as we were left to fend for ourselves for the extended 3 days all on our own.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Mt Fuji to arriving Tokyo
On our bus journey to Mt Fuji, the soil and scenery outside starts to turn snowy, window pane becomes colder....Woohoo....
As I did not bring enough warm clothing, I was so worried that I might just freeze there. haa
But Diana is so fully clothed! She bought this sheepy green sweater at Nagoya, Japan. A worthwhile buy I thought!
Haaha.. so cute.
We finally reached the foot of Mt Fuji!
It was beautiful up there if you ask me. It was snowing slightly at certain point in time which got us even more excited. Took quite some videos there but wun be uploading here. Just can't contain our excitement at that time, though we look abit 'swakoo' but we were reali happy to be there.
Afterall, I have not seen snow mountain b4!
Actually, it wasn't extremely cold, luckily. But thanks to the aunties in our tour bus who lent me her scarf and lend my frens the gloves. So nice of them! Clara also gave me a pocket warmer thatcan transmit heat to my body by sticking it to my skin!
We then head to TOKYO!
First stop: Odaiba.
During free and easy lunch time, we skipped our lunch and Diana brought us to Venusfort shopping centre, which she has been to last year.
Venusfort is a must to go. The shops sell pretty and unique clothes. Too bad we were like shopping against time!
A row of beautiful tulips outside Venusfort!!
The interior of the shopping centre is so pretty! Prices are acceptably middle-range.
Next stop: Ameyakko shopping street. Like Bugis street. Lower priced range.
Our dinner. SEDAP!
Next day: A dreadfully cold and rainy day at DISNEYLAND.
As I did not bring enough warm clothing, I was so worried that I might just freeze there. haa
But Diana is so fully clothed! She bought this sheepy green sweater at Nagoya, Japan. A worthwhile buy I thought!
Haaha.. so cute.
We finally reached the foot of Mt Fuji!
It was beautiful up there if you ask me. It was snowing slightly at certain point in time which got us even more excited. Took quite some videos there but wun be uploading here. Just can't contain our excitement at that time, though we look abit 'swakoo' but we were reali happy to be there.
Afterall, I have not seen snow mountain b4!
Actually, it wasn't extremely cold, luckily. But thanks to the aunties in our tour bus who lent me her scarf and lend my frens the gloves. So nice of them! Clara also gave me a pocket warmer thatcan transmit heat to my body by sticking it to my skin!
We then head to TOKYO!
First stop: Odaiba.
During free and easy lunch time, we skipped our lunch and Diana brought us to Venusfort shopping centre, which she has been to last year.
Venusfort is a must to go. The shops sell pretty and unique clothes. Too bad we were like shopping against time!
A row of beautiful tulips outside Venusfort!!
The interior of the shopping centre is so pretty! Prices are acceptably middle-range.
Next stop: Ameyakko shopping street. Like Bugis street. Lower priced range.
Our dinner. SEDAP!
Next day: A dreadfully cold and rainy day at DISNEYLAND.
Thursday, May 08, 2008
Some more pictures...
I am losing some patience in uploding the pics....while it is still lasting, here are some other photos. Ha. :>
Day 3 - Mt Fuji District- hot springs and sceneries....
Owakudani Valley- its a volcanic area with a strong stench of sulphur. Some of the bursting sulphur is captured on videos but I wun be uploading it here.
It is said that after eating the 'black shelled egg', your life can be extended for 7 more years. As if I believe in this crap. But I still eat it anyway. Ha.
The egg inside taste and look the same as any normal egg lar. haa. Or maybe the egg yoke is more yellowish?
A good view of the Mt Fuji can be taken at Oshino Hakkai- a mini park with a crystal clear pond and flow of mineral water where you can refill your bottle with.
Tada..A view of Mt Fuji from afar! The view looks too fake to be true but its real! We will be going to Mt Fuji the next day for a close-up of the snow mountain!
At our onsen (hot spring) resort- we have to dress in our robes provided in our tatami room to attend the dinner.
There is a mini onsen in our resort. It was so unspectacular that we don't even feel like trying in the end. We were expecting some big hot spring pools of varying tempt. Maybe cos our resort is a very small one.
The place to take your public bath before entering the onsen. Oh yar, you have to be totally naked when taking the bath and entering the pool. *winks*
Day 3 - Mt Fuji District- hot springs and sceneries....
Owakudani Valley- its a volcanic area with a strong stench of sulphur. Some of the bursting sulphur is captured on videos but I wun be uploading it here.
It is said that after eating the 'black shelled egg', your life can be extended for 7 more years. As if I believe in this crap. But I still eat it anyway. Ha.
The egg inside taste and look the same as any normal egg lar. haa. Or maybe the egg yoke is more yellowish?
A good view of the Mt Fuji can be taken at Oshino Hakkai- a mini park with a crystal clear pond and flow of mineral water where you can refill your bottle with.
Tada..A view of Mt Fuji from afar! The view looks too fake to be true but its real! We will be going to Mt Fuji the next day for a close-up of the snow mountain!
At our onsen (hot spring) resort- we have to dress in our robes provided in our tatami room to attend the dinner.
There is a mini onsen in our resort. It was so unspectacular that we don't even feel like trying in the end. We were expecting some big hot spring pools of varying tempt. Maybe cos our resort is a very small one.
The place to take your public bath before entering the onsen. Oh yar, you have to be totally naked when taking the bath and entering the pool. *winks*
Saturday, May 03, 2008
More pictures....
Just came back from a late night movie on Iron Man with Yiling, Shiying and Winson on Friday nite. I must declare that I cannot watch late night movie or play overnight majong. Slept too much during the show and now I am so awake. Sianz. But for overnite clubbing, think still can...ha.
So shall update some photos now before I lose the mood and become lazy.
Pls see previous post first for sequential viewing.
In brief,
Day2 -Nara & Kyoto- Parks and Temple....
After a good night's sleep, we are all geared up in contact lens and ready for a day of activities.
At Nara Deer Park and Todaiji Temple
Alot of deers walking ard!
I can't help to laugh at the fortune slips that Clara and Diana got. The fortune words are so mean!! One of them got half-luck, the other got no luck! Read it for yourself. hahahaha....ops...I am so mean. Lucky I dint play this. haa.
We have to squeeze thru this hole to get good luck!
I hope I have good luck from now on.
Kiyomizu Temple -worth going as there are many interesting shops along the way to the temple.
Our lunch. Not very nice.
Nagoya - our hotel location and shopping area
Sale of ciagarettes in vending machines.
Nagoya underground shopping mall. This sales asst is very frenly and cute. So we request to take a pic with her!
A good dinner to round up our day.
So shall update some photos now before I lose the mood and become lazy.
Pls see previous post first for sequential viewing.
In brief,
Day2 -Nara & Kyoto- Parks and Temple....
After a good night's sleep, we are all geared up in contact lens and ready for a day of activities.
At Nara Deer Park and Todaiji Temple
Alot of deers walking ard!
I can't help to laugh at the fortune slips that Clara and Diana got. The fortune words are so mean!! One of them got half-luck, the other got no luck! Read it for yourself. hahahaha....ops...I am so mean. Lucky I dint play this. haa.
We have to squeeze thru this hole to get good luck!
I hope I have good luck from now on.
Kiyomizu Temple -worth going as there are many interesting shops along the way to the temple.
Our lunch. Not very nice.
Nagoya - our hotel location and shopping area
Sale of ciagarettes in vending machines.
Nagoya underground shopping mall. This sales asst is very frenly and cute. So we request to take a pic with her!
A good dinner to round up our day.
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