Day of Relief- 30 May 2008

As some of you might know, I have decided to leave my job after in it for abt 1 yr & 8 mths.
YYEEAA!!!! Today marks the last official day! I am jubilant!


To explain why I quiited my job, I can write a 1000 words essay.......
[Parts deleted to secure confidentiality]





Surprisingly, my boss and colleagues think of me as very different from what I think of myself.

Some of think think that I am a very patient person which is to my advantage as they assume that clients will not bear to scold or shout at me and will instead listen and comply with me.

WRONG: I am actually quite an impatient and bad tempered person. I think my mother and one of you will totally agree with me. I have little patience with difficult clients who are rude, demanding and unreasonable. Ok. I agree that I probably don't show it very much on my face cos I avoid conflicts as best as I could but I am really fuming inside me. Thats why i say i am not patient or good tempered. A genuinely good tempered and patient person wont feel angry at all. But I do. And I get really sulky and grumpy after that.

Because I am impatient, I am also someone with a high sense of urgency and high level of neuroticism. I admit that alot of times I give myself unnecessary stress to want to meet certain deadlines to finish the cases so that my clients can get the money on time and not come and scold or harass me. I stay back almost every night to do my cases. Ppl think that I stay back bcos I am stressed. WRONG. The fact that I can stay back make me less stress and it reduces my stress so that I have extra time to do my work and I wont be so stress on the next working day. Some colleagues with the same working style as me will know what I mean by this logic. I even bring cases home to do. I am paranoid to a certain extent. If uncontrolled, I can be someone with no work-life balance as I am very task-oriented.

Am I suitable for this job? I really dunno. It works for and against me I feel.

Nonetheless, there are also reasons which I feel that I am suited for this job which I shant elaborate here orelse it will get lengthy.

I do have an exit plan after my resignation which is just one of my alternatives. Shall take things one at a time.

To date, the pillar of support during my course of work is truly my mother. She shared alot of my burdens from work just by giving me a listening ear and offering me a different perspective. If not for her, I think I can go insane. My mum totally understands the frustration that I am going tru whenever I tell her certain things. Sometimes she will even tell me that, "I really dun want to be in ur job." But of cos I think I have told her too many sad and poor stories that she is growing to get tired of hearing them. HA. She must be happy that I quitted lar. oh well.


My mother once told me that my stories at work are very sad and poor to the extent that its boring and uninteresting to hear, unlike criminal stories which are more unusual and juicy. She cautioned that if I have a husband, I shld refrain from pouring out to him as he probably wouldnt like to listen to them every single day. But isnt it true that husband and wife should share their woes?

I once read a meaningful article that reads:

"In life, there are more sorrows than happiness. There are too many people whom you can share your happiness with, not necessary your lover. If you live your life happily, you can also enjoy it alone. Sadness, however not many people is willing to share burden with you. If you are willing to tell him/her your unhappiness, she/he got to be someone who is closest and most understanding to you.

How to decide if you love 2 persons at the same time? When you are sad, which gal/guy you want to share your burden with? Whoever that comes to mind first is the one you love more. If you think of the same guy/gal when you are happy and sad, thats the most perfect. If not, choose the one you are willing to share your sadness with."



If you are sad, who comes to your mind first? Answer yourself honestly....

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